All in the Name of Love

Kaitlyn

It's the last day of school and everyone is cleaning out their lockers. Jason, Emily, Christie, Jackson, Isaiah, and I are all at Jason's lockers.

"So do y'all want to hang out next weekend? We can come to my house," Jason said.

Jason and I always come to each other's house for summer. We still did when we weren't speaking for two years, but that was because mom and Melissa always hung out.

"Yeah we can," Jackson replied.

"I'll look at what I have to do, but I think I can come," Emily said.

"I can go. So can Isaiah," Christie said as she looked at her boyfriend.

"Jason, we live together. I can't just leave my house," I replied.

"I forgot y'all live together. And I know it's only for your mom because she's in Dallas, but it's so weird," Emily piped up.

"It's not that weird. We did it in August through January," Jason and I said.

"Yeah I know, bu-"

"Hey guys," Michael said as he interrupted Emily.

"Oh, hey man. What's up." Jason gave him a bro hug.

"Nothing much. Mom and dad are pissed at Andrew for what he did."

"Language, Michael," Jason scolded him.

"Fine, sorry. Anyways they got mad at him for breaking y'all apart and now they won't speak to him."

"That's bad. Is he okay?" I asked.

"Yeah, he said he deserves it for everything that he has done. Charlotte is neutral on everything. She said that she didn't know that he wanted her to do it. She claimed that she didn't know y'all were together," Michael said.

"That's bull. She knew they were together. I've heard her talking about it with her minions. She knows good and well," Christie said.

"Well it doesn't matter anymore. Y'all are together and Andrew found out he was stupid to give you up. The only reason why he got with you was because of a bet. Then he found out he fell for you." Michael looked at me.

"I know. I didn't really liked him. I was just with him to know what Jason was saying about me. And also Andrew needs to get a life," I replied.

"Yeah. Well I'll see you guys around. Also, mom said hi." Then Michael left.

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"Okay class, I know that today is the last day, but that doesn't mean we can't have a history quiz," father said.

I raised my hand. He looked at me and called my name.

"Yes, Ms. McCarthy?" He asked.

"Why do we need to take a history quiz? Are you that cruel, dad?" I asked.

Dad looked at me. Probably because I haven't called him dad at school before.

"What do you suggest we do then, Kaitlyn?"

"I say, how about let us talk and be on our phones."

Dad looked at everyone. They're waiting for him to deny his own daughter. Dad looked back at me and sighed.

"Fine." The whole class cheered.

Jason turned to me. His smile was so bright.

"You actually called him dad at school. That's a surprise."

"Well, I have to say it once, right?"

~~~~~

After school; we went to Ruby's Cafe with Emily, Jackson, Christie, and Isaiah.

"So everyone knows what they want to do this summer?" Jackson asked.

"Yeah, but I don't know why we have to hang out at our house. My sister and brother's going to be there," I said.

"Please. I already asked Henry to say out of the way and Bianca said she wants to hang with us. You're parents also said it was okay. Please Kaitlyn?" Jason begged.

"Fine, but one rule: no yelling. I know how loud you guys are when you all are together."

"Yes. We promise to not get on your nerves."

"Jason, you get on my nerves anyways."

~~~~~

We we got home, I went straight to my room. This day just drained me emotionally and physically. I went to my joint bathroom to put water on my face. I saw the razor blade poking out of my mirror. I promise I wouldn't do it. But it's so tempting.

I decided to take a hot shower. I took of my clothes and hopped in.

I stand there for what feels like forever, but was only ten minutes. My depression and anxiety is still with me. I realized at a very young age that it won't go away. So I learn to deal with it. Sometimes it gets to hard. Other times I don't notice it's there.

When I got out of the shower I checked the time. It was 4:56 pm. I got into my pajamas and went downstairs. Everyone was in the living room. This reminds me of the time when Jason found out I was cutting. It wasn't that long ago. But it felt like forever.

"Hey. I heard that you guys are inviting some friends over?" Mom asked.

"Oh, yeah just a get together with Emily, Jackson, Christie, and Isaiah. Not that big."

"Okay, just remember that if one of you do something; keep it down." I looked at my mother.

"Mom, it's not like tha-"

"I was a teenager once too. But remember that you need protection."

"MOM!"

Bianca, Jason, and Henry was red with laugher. I glared at Bianca.

"I have a lot to tell on you. Do you really want to go there?" I asked my sister.

Her eyes went wide and she shook her head.

"That's what I thought."

I went back to my room and laid down. I don't really feel like doing anything. That's what depression does to you. Make you not want to do anything. I got diagnosed with depression at the age of eight. Mom thought it was a faze at first. Then by the time I turned thirteen, she realized it wasn't.

I wouldn't see a therapist. I can't talk about it to mom or dad, so why would I talk to a stranger?

It's been eatinge alive for years. I thought I was getting better when Jason came back in my life, but it's not. Nothing ever gets better.

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A/N

Hey guys, I have a feeling y'all will hate me, so I will just say it. This is the last chapter. There will be an epilogue. So please don't kill me.

Anyways, vote, comment, and share. And I'll see y'all later.