something i'm not so proud of :PHAN: (tw)

*Song: Truce by twenty one pilots*

- Dan -

"I have to go out for about 10 minutes. Are you sure you'll be okay?" Phil asked worriedly.

"Yes, Phil. It's 10 minutes." Dan said, although he wasn't actually quite sure.

"Okay. See you in a bit." Phil said, kissing Dan on the check before exiting the apartment.

Dan sighed and laid down on the bed, grabbing his laptop and scrolling through Tumblr. This went on for about 3 minutes until, of course, it happened.

'Oh, god damn it.' Dan thought. 'I won't cut. I refuse to let myself.'

So Dan looked around the room, desperate for something to do, something to stop himself. His eyes settled on the piano, which he immediately approached.

Dan slid into the seat in front on the piano, wincing after what had happened last night. But, as he settled his fingers on the piano, everything else seemed to fade away as he played.

Dan didn't even know he was playing, but it got his emotions out, which was always a plus. He barely even heard when Phil reentered the apartment, stopping whatever he was playing to look at Phil and smile.

Phil sat down on the bench with Dan, sliding up next to him and putting his arms around him. "Did it come back while I was gone?"

"Yeah. I didn't do it though!" Dan smiled.

"I'm so proud of you, you know." Phil kissed him on the forehead, making Dan giggle.

"Thank you."

~

Dan screamed as he shot up from his position on the bed, sweat beading on his forehead and tears in his eyes. He pulled his legs up to his chest, rocking back and forth as he sobbed.

Phil was awake as soon as Dan sat up, and he wrapped his arms aeound his shaking body, holding him still. "Nightmare?"

"Y-yeah." Dan stuttered, tears still coming at a steady pace. "I c-came out to m-my parents, and t-they decided that it w-was you that "t-turned me gay," a-and they hurt you s-so much, and you were u-unconsious, and there w-was so much b-blood-" He was cut off by Phil pulling him into his chest and rubbing his back.

"It wasn't real, Dan. I'm right here, and I'm not leaving anytime soon, especially not to the likes of them." Phil said, referring to Dan's parents. Dan let out a shaky laugh.

"Y-you promise?"

"Promise."

~
edited 2/7/17