|| Sanity || The only thing keeping you apart || (stein x reader soul eater)||

I let myself get carried away from Stein's lips. The kiss was hungry at first, but then it slowed down to a gentle, smooth. I felt him lick my bottom lip, at first I wasn't sure how to react, but that didn't stop him from doing what he did. In seconds, I felt his hand go under my shirt and straight for my chest. I took an inward gasp of surprise, causing my mouth to open slightly; he took advantage and slipped his tongue inside my mouth. 

After that, it was a rush of shivers and tingles. Every move, it seemed, brought a newly discovered feeling, a new kind of want. We broke apart to get air. I felt his lips traced my jawline to my neck. A moan escaped my mouth, and when I heard it I covered my mouth so as to prevent any more from coming out. I felt him chuckle a little.

"Coraline," his voice husky in my right ear, "let those amazing sounds come out. You never know, you might need them." I could hear the devilish smirk and tone in his voice. He was playing with me. He left a trail of kisses on my neck and slowly went down to my collar bone. 

When he reached the spot between my collar bone, that's what triggered me. For some reason, I wasn't able to contain the moans any longer. This only encouraged Stein to continue forward by sucking and licking that area. The contact of his warm, wet, tongue on my skin, sent an incredible wave of emotion through me. 

I had to admit, it felt good. The wave was an overwhelming mixture of surprise, want, pleasure. I wasn't able to contain myself anymore. I wrapped my arms around Stein's neck, causing him to look up. I took advantage and started attacking his jawline heading for his neck. 

When I reached the spot where our shoulders meet our neck, I heard him groan. I smirked and whispered in his ear, "Made weak, didn't I?" I felt him tense. I hit a nerve. He hates it when people make him weak. One quality that I learned to get used to.....mostly because I'm like that too. 

I made sure I attacked the area enough to make him weak in the knees. I guess.....I made....a huge mistake............*slaps myself mentally*

Stein pulled my arms, a bit too roughly, above my head. I gasped at his strength. What I got from him was a wide, devilish,  smirk. "Now look who's weak." The evil reeked from his husky voice. 

"Don't you dare try something, Franken Stein." I smiled as I felt him tense when I announced his full name. "You still hate that name?" I laughed bitterly. "The name that tied you to who you are?" I stared straight into his eyes. "You think I don't know that? How much you hate what you are, what you will become, what ties you down, what reminds you that you'll never be able to change no matter what?" I felt his grip loosen. I took advantage and was able to sit up. 

I looked at him, he was looking back at me with a sort of confusion that made my stomach turn. Is he serious? Does he really not understand? I fought back the urge to slap him, hard. I couldn't believe his reaction. 

"You think, for even a second, that I don't know that? I have lived in a lab for the majority of my life, for god sake! I was experimented on, I was used, I was cut open again and again and again. I was messed up mentally, I suffered through things that a normal human being would never think of in their entire life."

His expression turned gray, emotionless. I don't care. Marie, I'm sorry but he really triggered me. 

"At least you had a home, you had Spirit, a loving friend. You had food in your stomach. You didn't have to sleep on the cold stone floors, you didn't have to endure the claustrophobia of being trapped in a tight container for 3 whole days, you didn't have to go through the pain of your bones breaking, of your insides hurting like hell, you had enough that you were able to think about and mourn the things you want but can't have." 

I looked at him, I felt tears threatening to fall. But I don't care. It's the pain, the truth I have been hiding for my whole life. I saw his mouth open, I knew he was going to protest ad say he had it worse. Hell no, I did. 

"No." When I said this he closed his mouth. "You don't understand. You try to, but you that deep inside, you'll never be able to truly understand the pain and hurt. I know. You have gone through things too but those things....are nothing compared to the Hell I lived through." 

.....and still living now.......

I stood up from the bed. Walked to the door. Paused. 

"Thank you. For taking care of me. For helping me get back." 

Another pause. 

"Marie told me not to break. I guess, I'll never change." I turned towards Stein. He turned to face me. I smiled the saddest smile that I have ever done in my life. "I guess...things won't ever change. But thank you, for trying. To make me believe that things were different, that they could change.......thank you." 

With that, I opened the door and left. I never looked back. It felt like I left something there. Some part of me. My past? My fear? My pain? 

Truth?

I tried to ignore it as I kept walking but for some reason, my mind thought it would be funny to relive those past few moments. The coldness, the painful transition from warm, want, to the bitter coldness of truth. 

How could he? He didn't hurt me....did he? I mean, it's the truth. He had and still has a better life that I will ever have. 

I guess I wasn't really looking at where I was going because I bumped into someone with headphones. 

"Oh, Coraline!" He said in his half-yell half-talk voice. "How are you?" I guess he really took me in consideration, he really looked at me, at my situation. "Are you okay?" 

I kept my head down. I paused and tried so hard not to cry, not to scream my emotions, not to cut. I nodded. He didn't take that as an answer. 

"Coraline...." I shook my head and tried to walk away, tried to forget. Suddenly, a wave of dizziness attacked me. It caused the world to move in a slow, blurry movement. My stomach felt like it was turned upside down, my mind cloudy from the fog that was expanding. I couldn't feel the floor under my feet for a moment. I sort of darkness threaten to take control of my vision. I felt myself leaning to the right, as I let the darkness consume me. 

I heard Justin yell my name in that voice of him. I saw Marie coming out of a room, hurrying to where we were. 

Then slowly...I let myself....fall...for the hundredth time....into the darkness. 

A/N: Unexpected? XD jk. Anyway, thank you for reading! Please comment or vote if it was accpetable! Again, I apologize for late updates *bows* i'm trying my best to update, with everything that has been happening inside of school, i'm making progress! Again thank you and I hope you enjoyed this chapter. I will try to update tm, and if not possible, I apologize in advance. Thank you!! 

-1901Bluemoon