?missing spark? ? l.kook

it was another day of being alone in the house... as usual.
  

it was also the second day of deciding whether to leave him or- - i can't...

jeongyeon will come here again tomorrow. what could i say for her to not take me away from him? i can't leave my kookie. i really love him so much.
      
i still believe that everything will soon be alright.
     

today, i decided to do the grocery.
   

i smiled a little.

  

i could still remember those days where kookie and i do this together.

    
but not anymore. 

  
  
for the past two months, i go to grocery alone.
  

i eat meals alone, anyway.

  

jungkook works full-time, that's why.

  

i sighed while fixing my blouse. i stared at the mirror and frowned. 

  

it used to fit perfectly on me but now, it wasn't anymore. i was indeed getting thinner.

   

  

i pulled a cart and started getting everything i need to purchase until i heard someone crying... 

  

i went near the voice and then i saw a little boy crying. he might've lost his mom.

  

"hey there, little buddy, why are you crying?" i said softly while patting his head. he continued to cry and i felt bad.

"where's your mommy?" i asked him but he cried even harder. what have i done?
    

"she's dead!" i gasped as i gently pulled him closer to me and hugged him. poor little boy, but where's his guardian now?

"where's your guardian?" he sniffed before looking up to me.
     

"my guardian angel? i don't know." i giggled and pinched his cheeks softly. he was so cute.

  

"i mean--
     

"there you are, minhyuk!" i turned back at the male who seemed to call the little boy as the kid ran towards him.
    

"appa!"

  

i froze.

  

  

tears started falling down my face. i felt the pain in my chest. i thought i was about to collapse.

    
   
   

"kookie..."