Random things I think about

Hey so you guys know that girl that I was talking about last part, the one I like that's practically dating that guy? Yeah? Well, they're dating now. 

Like they are full on dating and she always talks about him. She's my best friend, so I have to be happy for her, and I am. But I'm also dying inside, like she keeps breaking my heart and soul and everything in between. Oh yeah, and did I mention she only talks about him? It's not annoying, like if it were anyone else I would be completely fine with it. But she knows how I feel about her. So god it hurts even more. 

What's worse? She keeps asking if it's her fault that I'm sad and like it is, but she shouldn't feel bad about it, she's happy, I shouldn't be acting so pathetically. She's happy, I should be overjoyed for her, but I just can't be. All this week I've been faking happiness for her. But god I just can't do it anymore! Like I'm an emotional wreak inside, but I fake happiness when I'm around her. It's tiring me so much that I've been getting home and sleeping for hours on end. That's strange for me. I usually can't sleep at all. Granite my sleeping when I get home makes it so I can't at night, but then I'm even more tired during the day and then I have to deal with her. It's gotten to the point where I'm so tired I don't even think twice before eating(also very out of character for me.) I'm just not okay guys. And the worst part is there's nothing I can do about it because she's my best friend and I don't want her to feel bad because she says she loves him (which hurts me like nothing else I've ever felt in my life) 

~IgtgBye!!