If I Knew Then BxB~ Is being Edited.

                                                           Brian's pov..

I was sitting in my library reading 'To kill a Mockingbird',i had my ipod on and didn't realize that someone had come in until they touch my shoulder.

It was my dad looking amuse at me,i rolled my eyes he thought it was weird listening to music while reading since he thought it couldn't be possible its either one or the other.

I sat the book after i marked it,i know it by heart but i still mark it and than shut off my ipod.

''What's up?,Did you suddenly remember you have a son?''.I ask him i haven's seen him in two days and seeing as i was forbidden to go to their side of the house,i was getting annoyed and restless.

''Smart ass,no im here to talk to you about youre future''.He said and took a seat on my leather chair infron of my desk where my computer was on.

''What do you mean''?.I ask him confuse.

''I want to know that im not going to forced you into becoming a designer and that you can do what ever you want to be''.He smile at me and i could see in his eyes that he meant it,he was being honest.

''Ok than i'll think about it and i'll get back to you''.I said still eyeing him,is there something else?.I wondered.

''Something else on you're mind old man''.I pushed him to spit it out.

''Why did you really leave New York''?.My dad had hesitated and now i see why,i gritted my teeth and narrow my eyes at my dad.

''I don't want to talk about it''.I said with anger noticeable in my voice.

''No,i gave you time and now i want to talk about it''.My dad snapped at me.

''He stole from me,he betrayed me and play with my feelings,there now you know''.I said standing up and started to pace around from one side to the other rubiing my face.

''How do you know?.Did you even ask him  or are you just assuming?''.My dad was looking at me as he was asking all those words and i stop walking to stare back at him.

Did i waited to hear his excuses?.No should i had?,Hell no why wait for lame excuses.

''They would've been lame excuses and i just wanted to get the hell out of there''.I finally spoke up feeling stupid.

''But you could've still had the decency to hear his excuses''.My dad stated and i glared at him.

''Well it's too late and the bastard prove me right and turn up to be still the asshole from back then''.I choke a sob and shook my head no fast to will my tears away.

''I know you and that's not why you came back here without hearing his excuses''.My dad spoke like he knew everything and that just pissed me off.

''No,you know that im my own person and i know why i left''.I yelled and my dad didn't even flinched.

''First of all~You're hurting so i'll let the yelling at me slide.Second of all~Why are you lying to you're self''?.He asked me and his eyes were fill with love and compassion

''I'm not lying''.I mumble.

''Yes you are''.He spoke softly.

''I'm not''.I scream at him throwing my hands up in the air.

''Yes!Yes you are,as soon as you saw youre stuff in his closet you got it in you're head that you needed to leave before he did like back then,Hell Brian im pretty sure while you were happy with him you kept waiting for the other shoe to drop and him turn to be the asshole you think he still is,you are afraid of loving someone because youre scared he/she will leave and brake you're heart''.I was speech less at what my dad said and just stared at him with tears in my eyes.

''I'm scared''.I whispered hugging my arms around my stomach and squezzing my eyes shut letting the tears come rolling down my cheeks,my dad was right i was just waiting for the other shoe to drop,for Fisher to just betrayed me in fact i expected him and when i saw my stuff i knew that was my out before he decided to leave me broken like the last time,i was actually relieved to see it all coming done.

''I know son,but you can't keep running away from love''.My dad told me embracing me in a hug.

''But how do i?''.I didn't know what i was asking.

''The reason why youre so afraid of  love is because of me and you're mom,13 years old and you're parents divorced each other so you're old man could remarry that made you wary,but you gotta understand sometimes people don't meet their soulmates til late,and i think you and that boy are soulmates''.He stated and i pull out of his arms to look at him.

''How would you know that?,What if Fisher or me find our soulmates later in the years?''.I sniffed a bit.

''Son look at you're life,Fisher was in youre life since you were born up until you were 9 years old,you guys stop being friends and out of all the people in the world you're mom falls in love with Daniel bringing you and Fisher together again,i look at it as fate''.My dad spoke and i just nod.

''It's too late now''.I said wiping the tears from my face.

''Call him and ask him why he did it''.My dad gave me advice and i looked at him,as he walked towards the door to leave.

''It's up to you but at least clear it up by asking him why he did it,even if you guys don't end up together at least you know why it happend''.My dad left me staring at my cell phone debating weather i should call Fisher or not.

After a few hours of debating,i finally grew some balls and push send on the name on my contacts.

Ring...

Ring...

Ring..

''Hello?''.Fisher's voice sounded on the other side.

''Why?''.I ask him after a few minutes on the line.