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Lydia's POV
I woke up in a hospital bed. I looked at my wrist and started to cry. I seen the stitches. Gosh why did I have to do that. The boys walked in. I was still looking down at my wrist. "Lydia" Niall said. I looked up at him. Tears in my eyes well I looked at the boys with tears in there eyes. "I'm okay" I said trying to lighten up the mood a bit. "The doctors will release me when he gets my medicine and gives us paper work to sign" I said again. "Okay" zayn said "Baby I'm sorry. It's my fault this happens to you" Harry said crying. Gosh why Harry. Why you have to say that. It's not your fault you big dummy. I thought to myself. "Baby I'm fine it just stitches and medicine. I'll be okay" I said to him. "You could've died" Niall said. Gosh Niall I'm sorry I put you through this. I'm sorry. "But I didn't" I said to Niall. "I love you guys and you know I wouldn't leave without saying goodbye" I said again. The boys gave me a hug. The doctor walked in. "Okay your good to go Mrs.rose" the doctor said. "Okay thank you" I said to the doctor. "Mr.payne can I talk to you outside" the doc asked. Liam walked outside with the doctor who knows what they were talking about. The boys and I were laughing. I got up from my bed. Took everything off my skin. Liam and the doctors walked back inside. The doctor gave me some papers to sign. I signed them. I slipped on my shoes. "Okay Mrs.rose you'll have to come back in 2 weeks to get those stitches removed" the doctor said "alright" I said. I got myself out of bed. Harry smashed his lips against mine in a soft and passionate kiss. The boys gave me a hug. They took me to the car. "See you guys at the house then" I asked "yes" Harry,zayn and Louis said. I'm so thankful that I'm alive. I still cry all the time just thinking about these cuts. I got in the car and the boys followed after. Liam started the car. We had a peaceful quit drive home. We got to the house. Parked the car. I undid my seat belt and walked in. I went to go sit down on the couch. "You okay" Niall asked "I don't know" I said "I did. This to my self. I hurt you guys by doing it. Yes I wanted to die but then I thought about it" I said. I started to cry. I looked at my arm. Wrapped in bandages and bleeding. "Why" I said "why what" Liam  said "why did I have to do its gosh I'm such an idiot" I said. I got up from the couch and ran to my room.  cried harder than ever. I slammed my door. Locked it behind me. Niall and Liam banging on the door. "Lydia! Open the door!" They yelled "no!" I said "just leave me alone please" I said again "Lydia open the door!" They said "no!" I said through heavy tears. I heard the front door burst open. "What going on!" Another voice said. Sounded like Louis. "Is Lydia in there" another voice said. Sounded like zayn. "Open the door please love!" Zayn said "no" I said through tears. I sat on my bed. Crying in my hands. "Baby open the door!" Harry yelled "no!" I yelled again "just leave me alone Please" I said. The banging stopped. I unlocked my door. I looked out the door. The boys were gone. I closed my door again and laid  down. I kept crying until I fell asleep. "No!" I said "no!" I said again "st-stop!" I said again crying in my sleep. "Noooooo!" I yelled "leave me alone!" I said "please!" I said again "aggggggggggghhhhhhh!" I yelled s "no!" I yelled. I was being shaken in my sleep. "baby wake up!" I heard someone say "Lydia!" I heard again. I woke up. The boys all around me. I started crying. Harry places his hand on my thigh. "No!" I yelled. I got up from my bed and ran downstairs. "Lydia" someone said "what's wrong" the voice said again. I turned around and it was zayn. "I don't know" I said "I cried myself to sleep and all i remember is me screaming in my sleep because I was having a bad dream"I said. I fell to my knees crying on the floor. Zayn grabbed me into a hug. "Shhh it's okay" he said  "Why'd he have to do that" I said "who" someone said. I looked up and it was Harry "Adam" I said again "what he do" he asked "well you know how I told you guys what happens in the hallway" I said "yeah" Louis said. I looked up at him crying. "That's what my dream was about" I said to Louis "oh" Niall said "what did Adam do" Harry asked "I don't wanna talk about it" I said "Lydia" Harry said "what did he do" he asked "you can't force her to tell you harry" Liam said "what did he do!" He yelled. I got myself up. I looked at Harry. "When you were kissing that girl in the lunchroom. I ran off because I could stand to see that. I ran to my locker to pack my things and Adam was there. He wanted me but I didn't let him. He would walk forward as I would walk back until I couldn't no more. He placed his hand on the side of my thigh. His hand creeping up my skirt and into the inner part of my thigh. I told him to stop twice. I told him fuck you and called him as sick fuck. That's when he slapped me hard across the face. I feel to the floor holding my cheek as it burnt. I told him fuck you and he said as you wish and that when my back came in contact with the floor. Adam held my arms up to each sides of my heads. Gripping my wrists hard. He was on top  of me until the guys came. Then I just blacked out" I said. "Baby I'm sorry I wasn't there to help you" he said "it's okay" I said "I'm fine now" I said again. The boys gave me a hug. Harry gave me a soft and passionate kiss. Until the kiss started going deeper. Then Harry backed us up into the wall. My back came in contact. "Okay Harry don't fuck my sister in  front of me" Niall said. I started laughing and went to go sit down on the couch.