I'm bored... Let's write

Daydreaming, we do it everyday, every time. But did you know people do it majority of their time pouring every imagination they have for this daydreams? This is actually a disorder but psychology doesn't accept this as a mental disorder yet because they think there's nothing wrong with it, they don't see any issue with this. But actually, other people are suffering from this. This affect their ability to socialize and can stop them from doing what's important such as school works. This developed from childhood where kids used their imagination to daydream to cope with their situation. Sure, every kid has imagination and stories but with Maladaptive Daydreaming, it doesn't go even after childhood. A quick disclaimer before I get into more deeper meaning and story about Maladaptive Daydreaming Disorder (MaDD), I am not a medical or psychological professional nor a qualified person to discuss this topic. All I'm going to say here are purely from my personal experience and knowledge gathered from the internet or other people who has MaDD.

Maladaptive Daydreaming Disorder is excessive daydreaming that can take up to 4 or more hours of their time purely dedicating for daydreaming. Maladaptive means marked by poor or inadequate adaptation and not conducive to adaptation. I disagree with it because for me it's very helpful and I don't know what I will do if I don't daydream at least 1hr or more a day. I self diagnosed myself that I have MaDD because I recently found out about this last year, the description for it is perfect with my situation. I have been daydreaming for me to be okay with what I have. A study said MaDD is linked with anxiety and depression. I have been suffering with anxiety my whole life. I didn't know that what I do have a name. I thought everybody do it and it's normal for me to stay up late thinking about my paras and staying in my paracosm. Para/s is what we call our characters we made up and paracosm is our world. It could be more than one paracosm. Normal daydreaming doesn't have a detailed world and person in it, mostly it's what they thought or imagine their futures with but MaDD's daydreaming are composed of a whole detailed world with more than 1 person as their paras that they know all their life, our paras can be ourselves or a whole different person. Some even have daydreams of different family and kids who have this means they don't like their family and they will create their perfect life in their daydream. Others daydream about being a different person who's their perfect dream self. It's actually kinda sad how each type of daydream have it's downside. For example, maladaptive daydreamers who have severe anxiety tend to daydream a lot about being a celebrity or more confident than they are in real life.

The best part of this is that we can call ourselves creative. Being creative doesn't need to be related to artistry or musicality. Having your own world that's very detailed and you can have meaning to anything in it because it's your own and you spend a lot of time nurturing that world to be perfect is very creative to me. It's like writing your own book but it's only tuned for yourself and not for others to be impressed. Sometimes this can be overwhelming and what others do to exert some of it was act it out or write it down. I read comments that when they act it out, it feels more real and it helps them too. I rarely do this because I prefer to write it down. When I feel that it's too much, I open this app or writer+ to pour my thoughts out. I don't publish it though because like I said, it's only for myself and it won't make sense for others and I'll just have a hard time explaining all of it for them to understand it. Maybe someday I'll try because I feel like my stories are perfect for science fiction books or dystopian worlds, my paracosm was inspired by some of my favorite authors and movies, when I write it down, it's obvious where I get the idea.

The next part I'll be talking about is our triggers. The most common triggers are music. I don't have playlist of my trigger music but I do have some. Our worlds have it's own theme song, for others maybe they don't, I don't have a theme song but I have certain type of song that can trigger me into daydreaming. Other trigger is pacing. Naturally when you're pacing back and forth you'll be in deep thoughts and conversation in your head. Some people use this to get more ideas in their paracosm. My trigger was silence. When I'm surrounded by peaceful nothing, I enter my paracosm and explore it. This is the reason why I'm rarely bored. I can stand silence, I actually prefer it cuz loud noises gives me headache, real headache. I also use this as a weapon when I'm stuck in a long waiting line or when I'm walking.

Unfortunately, this isn't something that you can learn easily. It comes natural for us who have this, it doesn't take us much effort into creating this world. It's very vivid in our head and it feels like directing your own movie. If by chance you think you have Maladaptive Daydreaming, you can check Jessie's channel called Unique Soul on YouTube, she's the reason I found out about this and almost all I wrote here I found on her channel. She's a teenager like me and she's not a medical professional but she had experience about this. To wrap this all up, I just want you to know Einstein's quote, "Logic will get you from A to B. Imagination will take you everywhere."