~?i'M sOrRy?~

It couldn't have been more then a mere hour before I picked myself back up and walked the alleys. There was no one around and I'm scared, I've never liked being alone in a new place. I shuffle myself down a narrow alley, theres a light at the end so that means someone is up!

I rush to the light to only find it's a streetlamp at the sidewalk, I huffed and turn back around into the alley. I roam for a few more hours until I can guess it is midnight or 1 in the morning. I dont have my watch on me, I didnt get it back from my nightstand yesterday? Was that yesterday or was it today, i dont know anymore, the days are bleeding into each other.

I hear muffled and slow footsteps growing closer to me, my body stills as a young woman strolls by me. She doesnt pay attention to me and simply carries on with her night. My body turns around on it's own, what is it doing? My body suddenly lunges as the woman, pining her to the cold and somewhat cold stone floor.

Please! No!

My body refuses to listen to me as I sink my fangs into her bare flesh, I can taste the sweet blood on my tongue. I rip out her throat and start to dig into what good meat I can find. I never eat the face or intestines, so that's not an option. So the only other options o have are her legs, arms, and neck.. which I have already taken a huge chunk out of. I continue to tear into her flesh as her quiet screams as become muffled and dulled as the light left her eyes.

It seems like it was forever until my body finally let me have control, I fling myself away from her body and back up against a wall in guilt. She didnt deserve to die! She was innocent!

I sobbed as her dead and glazed over eyes seemed to scream at me, yelling at me for killing her. I closed my eyes and covered my ears to block the howling wind that was filling the alleyway. I couldn't even hear the fast paced footsteps running towards me nor could I feel the hand being placed onto my shoulder. I rocked myself back and forth in a dazed state as someone picked me up, I didnt care who it was! I just want away from her eyes, away from what I did to an innocent woman. She didnt deserve to die!

I shuddered at the thoughts of her unmoving and glazed over eyes, because of me. It's my fault and I deserve the voices for it, it will be my punishment to go back to them.

Suddenly a jerking movement pulled me out of my dazed state, my eyes looked up to see a worried Aizawa. My eyes immediately went back to look at my blood covered hands, I sobbed and tried to wipe the blood onto my clothes instead. Only finding my clothes are already doused in blood from the innocent woman. I shakily looked around and noticed I was now in a bathroom and a shower was running. I can tell it's hot water from the light steam coming from the water.

I looked around to see a teary eyed papa, he was telling me something but I cant hear him all that well. He points to my clothes and makes a motion for me to take them off, I nod my head and he points to the shower. I understand, he wants me to take a shower, to get rid of what's left of the innocent woman. I shakily lift my shirt over my head, reaviling the horrible scars the litter my upper body. I turn my head to see a shocked papa as I handed him my shirt, he points to my pants and I nod. I take them off and hand them back to him, I wearily take off my boxers and hand them over and step into the warm shower.

I wash off the sins of killing the innocent woman, a woman who probably had a family that is wondering where she is. But she is dead in an alleyway with her throat ripped out and no legs or arms. I shudder as I wash my hair, the blood flows down my legs and into the drain. Never to be seen by me again, it's the sewers problem now, not mine but the thoughts are still mine. I eventually wash out all of the blood and move into my body. It didnt take as long and it was easier to get blood off of your body then out of your hair.

I step out and grab the towel sitting on the toilet lid, awaiting its job to take the water from my body. I grab it and dry myself off, I wrap it around my waist and open the bathroom door. I can slightly hear a faint mechanical thumping noise, I believe that its the washing machine. I wearily walk to my bedroom and grab some new clothes, I strip myself of the soaking towel and dress in the sleep wear. I hear a knock on the door, not trusting my voice I move towards the door and open it up.

It was papa and Aizawa, I step back a bit so they can walk in if wanted to, "hey kiddo.... you doing okay?" I barely register what papa asked but when I do I shake my head in disagreement. He gives me a concerned look and steps into my room. He sits on my bed and motions for me to follow, I nod and sit next to him as Aizawa sits next to me. I sit between my new guardians, the new guardians of a murderer.

I lightly shake as I remember her eyes, her eyes are all I can remember, her pleading eyes as I ripped into her throat. I am snapped out of it as Aizawa shakes mybshoulder lightly, my head swivels up to look at his worried and tired eyes. "Were you hungry?" I slowly nod "you couldn't help it could you?" I nod once more but this time I find myself leaning to him.

He places a hand in my damp hair, I lean on his shoulder and finally start to feel the night catch up with me. I can feel my eyes starting to grow heavier and heavier with each minute that we stay in this position. He tries to get up and leave but my arms absently mindlessly clutch onto his waist. He chuckles and lays with me, I finally sleep for once. A nice peaceful sleep, one without worry for the next lash out or mistake. I can finally get the much needed rest for tonight, and then I can wake up and remember what I did.

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Edited: April 29, 2020