~?i'M sOrRy?~

Auntie says it's time to go home, I say goodbye to kachan and follow auntie back out to the car. It wasnt a long drive back home, I said my goodbyes and went back inside to papa and dad sleeping on the couch. They fell asleep with a movie on, it seems the movie dodnt really catch their attention.

I wrote a quick note and put it on the side table next to them, just so they know I'm home. I tiptoed upstairs and to the bathroom, I grabbed a few razors and walked to my room. Happy about what I was going to do to myself, I mean I deserved it. Didn't I?

I closed and locked my door, making sure to not make a sound. Good thing I have a bathroom connecting with my room. I walked into my bathroom and sat down on the cold tile floor, it was nice and refreshing under my hot skin.

I made sure I had bandages before starting, we cant have anyone finding out. They would only hate me more.

One cut...
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Twenty four cut...
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Thirty cut...

I let the blood drip down my arm and onto the cold tile beneath me, letting it make a small pool of deep red. I lost myself looking in it, I was snapped out when I realized I needed to clean up.

I stood up but my legs buckled and I went falling to the ground with a light thud, i have been lighter since i have stopped eating human meat. I vowed bot to after what i did to the poor woman, it only seemed right.

I used the counter to help myself up, I turned the water one and let it flow over the cuts on my arms. The blood seemed to find itself in the current, following the water and to the sewer where it will collect and no one will know.

I sighed and grabbed the bandages and wrapped them around my wrist, thank god I have hurt myself enough to know how to wrap a hurt wrist. I grabbed roll of toilet paper and wiped up the blood, if the found it I could say I got a bloody nose.

I threw away the dirtied toilet paper and used a wet washcloth to wipe away the rest of what remained, thank god it wasnt on carpet. Blood is hard to get out of carpet or any absorbent material to think of.

I dusted my pants and unlocked the door and stepped out into my room, I grabbed a black hoodie and threw it on over my head. This will cover the bandages!

I laid down on the bed but my head was shot up as papa knocked on my door, I sigh and unlock it. "Hey little listener! Want some dinner?" I quickly nod and follow him downstairs to the living room where dad is also up and about. "You know it's not good to sleep before going to bed." I say as dad gives me a playful glare.

I stick out my tongue to him he sticks his out back at me, I make an ugly face and he gasps before turning to the kitchen. I snicker as papa calls me to the kitchen, "here little listener! One dinner, just for you!" He says with a big smile, I laugh and eat up. I avoid the clearly human meat, i dont know how they it but they did. Maybe from a dead body worker, what are they called? Morticians!

Yeah, they work with dead body's and preserve them for funerals and stuff. I heard that some bodys cant be salvaged so that's why they have closed coffin funerals, but I wouldnt know. I lightly shove the playe back, "I got full papa" "okay, put it in the freezer!" I nod even if he cant see me.

I quickly package the meat in its respectable bags and put it back in the freezer, I go upstairs to brush my teeth before coming back downstairs.

I sit in between them as they try to cuddle, "no! Only cuddle me!" I say in a fake bratty voice. Papa chuckles and grabs me before standing up and throwing me to the other couch. I laughed and held my stomach as dad started a movie.

He put on some random movie but I didnt pay too much attention to it, I don't really care for movies unless they catch my attention. I laid my head on the couches arm and let the sounds of the movie played. It sounded like a action movie as I heard some explosions and people screaming.

Sonner or later I started to nod off to sleep so i excused myself to my room for the night. I walked up the stairs as the sleep seemed to drag behind me and stay back on the couch. Man, so much for turning in early tonight. I reached my door and opened it before closing it and laying on my bed.

I thought about kachan and what I did to him, it's all my fault, he didnt deserve that. Why did my body do that? I-I know I have been easily angered but he didnt anger me! I dont understand how or why I lashed out at him but I'm sorry for doing it. I hope he wakes up soon so I can apologize to him, it's the most i can do.

I hope he doesnt want to break up with me, that would really break me, kachan is my everything. If I lost him I wouldnt know what to do with my life, I probably stop doing anything. I miss him more the more I think about him, it's not good to keep thinking about him but I cant help but to since I'm the reason hes in the hospital.

I started to see the creatures and hear the voices as my eyes grew heavier and heavier with each passing minute. The creatures creeped towards me as my eyes closed as I finally fell asleep for the night.

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Edited: April 29, 2020