Finding Me (Todoroki x Reader)

"Whoa, Bakugou! You're really good with that knife! It's weird..."

"What do you mean it's weird?! How can you people be so damn bad at everything?!"

I sighed as I walked past Ochaco and our residential classroom hedgehog, their conversation not even bringing a twitch of a smile to my face. The water hadn't been magical at all, and I had left the bathroom feeling even more gloomy than I had before. Internally, I was kicking myself for feeling so down, but I just couldn't find it in me to even smile.

My head was bowed as I walked around my classmates, manoeuvring myself throughout the maze of tables and fire pits with an empty pot. As soon as I had arrived on the scene, Iida had pushed the object into my hands and had sent me off to fill it. I didn't say much to him, only muttering a quick agreement before scuttling off to find the tap.

"Hello there, Y/N. Ribbit."

I turned my gaze up to meet Tsu's face, her smile jolting me slightly out of my depressed state. 'Come on, perk up a little. Or else she'll realise.' Tsu always could read me well, but I had to try, right?

"Hey..." I replied, definitely not with the usual level of enthusiasm.

Although I'd had plenty of rest to restore my energy since finishing training, I didn't feel energised. Not in the slightest. I placed the pot in the sink, my fingers feeling somewhat detached as I turned on the tap. The water gushed out slowly, but I didn't care. I just wanted something to distract me for as long as possible - so that I didn't have to think about... that.

I hadn't even realised I'd zoned out until I heard my name being called.

"You okay, Y/N?" Tsu asked, jolting me out of my stupor.

"O-Oh, yeah! I'm fine..." I said, flashing her my best closed-eyed smile. "Just... tired, I guess."

Tsu's hum sounded very unconvinced, making me wince.

"You took a while coming to the bathroom," she noted, turning to her own pot in the sink. "Same with Momo. Were you guys talking?"

I tried not to jump at that, but I did grow tense, and I knew that Tsu saw it.

"Y-Yeah," I said, deciding that it would be better to just go along with it rather than outright lie.

"What did you talk about?" I hesitated. "Y/N?"

I turned the tap off, but made no move to take the pot out. I didn't know if I had the strength to pick it up; I'd been drained both physically and emotionally today, and I really had nothing left to give. However, I knew Tsu would just keep pestering me if I didn't give it to her straight.

Breathing in deeply, I turned my head towards her, trying to keep a level voice as I said, "She wanted to talk about Shoto."

Her bright, green eyes widened, tongue slipping back into her mouth as she let a quiet, "Oh..."

"Yeah," I breathed out, knowing that I didn't need to say anymore. I was sure she could figure out the rest.

I flinched at the feeling of a hand on my back, making soothing rubbing motions along my tensed muscles. As much as I appreciated Tsu trying to comfort me, it was so obvious. Everyone would be able to see, and then ask me why I was upset. Including Shoto. I couldn't let them see me like this: on the brink of tears just because I had a tiny school-girl crush on my best friend.

I hated feeling like this, and I certainly did not want people worrying over me for no great reason. 'I'm being silly.'

Straightening up, my back became cold at the loss of Tsu's hand.