Q?U?E?E?N {Noah Puckerman/Glee} {Book 1}

"She got mad at me." I scoff, ranting to Puck about everything that happened with Santana. "Like, if I'm finally brave enough to take a step with someone shouldn't she be happy for me?!" I stare at him waiting for a response, he just gaps at me.

   "Well?" I snap.

"I- I don't know. I'm not a girl Lena I don't understand them or their problems." He puts his arms up as though he's surrendering and sighs.

"If we're gonna be a thing you better figure it out soon!" I shove his shoulder and stand up, reading to walk out before he grabs my shoulders and forces me to sit back down.

"Don't leave." He says, softly. He then stops talking and I can almost see his thoughts spinning around his head as he tries to figure out what to say and how to say it.

"Maybe she's afraid of losing you?" He says it like it's a question, like he isn't sure if I'm going to accept it or go into a rage at him for it.

    "Go on." I nod.

"Well this is your first proper thing, so maybe she thinks that all of a sudden instead of ditching your hookup for her you'll start ditching her for me." He explains. I nod along to what he's saying, because it kinda makes sense... it's just a problem Santana and I have never faced.

"I guess that makes sense," I mumble with a shrug. It just sounds stupid, not because of Puck but because Santana... if you ask me it's a tad dramatic, I'm not just gonna ditch her for dick, I only did that once!

But then I yelled at her before... she could possibly be right... no! Puck would not do that to you. She was just being dramatic - which is unfair. Maybe this is just the life I'm meant to have, hooking up all the time to keep her happy.

Santana is too important to me for me to just lose her over a guy. But I really like puck. "I don't know what to do," I sigh, rubbing my face. "This is the first time I've ever been this conflicted - other than when I 'got with you'."

   "I wish I could help you more - I'll support whatever decision you make."

"Thanks Puck." I kiss him on the cheek. He wraps his arms around me, pulling me close. "I'm always here for you, Lena."
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Ummmm I updated? I think that's good idk. Again I'm so so so so sorry that I've taken so long to get this done. Mentally I just dipped because idk I was just feeling like shite also y'know corona that also took a toll on my mental health and I also had to work harder at school... I'm back at school now :)