The Ghost Within

Tawny didn't really like when people bought things for him. He always felt bad, then again that was his natural thought of being the world's biggest burden.

He thought maybe he should atleast try to look around. He did look around, finding himself wandering off. Mainly going deep in thought, mindlessly sweeping his eyes over the clothing.

A familiar voice broke the silence.

"Hey Tawns."

A shudder was sent down his spine, for a split second he recognized the voice from the store but at the same time it didn't. He held his chest, the familiar feeling of fear coming back. He turned and his eyes fell on Erin's boyfriend.

He sighed a somewhat sigh of relief. Ultimately believing it was just his mind messing with him. Truth be told though, the spirit voices started to get worse of course he didn't tell Blair that in fear of him worrying.

He rubbed his head and looked at him.

"What do you want?" He asked.

The male tilted his head at him, "I think you know the answer to that Tawny."

Tawny winced in slight disgust. He shook his head, "No Jake... I don't..."Blair found maybe about two peiced before he went to return to tawny, sense the male hadn't passed him he went the other way glancing around for him. He set the items over his arm and spotted tawny  a hum of relief from him then he saw the other male speaking to him. 

All he saw was the back of the males head before tawny moved making the other move, blairs eyes narrowed as he walked through the set ups to head towards tawny.

Tawny had scoffed, not even daring to listen to what the male said.

As he went to walk away, Jake grabbed his wrist pulling him back against him.

Tawny shuddered under the male's grasp, he let out a low breath. He didn't even hear what Jake hissed in his ear, Tawny was trapped there like a small rabbit.

But why? He looked up and saw Blair, immediately moving into him. He held onto his tense body as he himself felt a little dizzy.

Blair automatically was about to snatch the male away from tawny but was stopped when tawny spotted him moving himself into Blair, Blair wrapped a protective arm around tawnys waist holding him close to his body.

"Touch him the fuck again and you'll fucking regret it," blairs voice dropped almost sounding like a growl, his hand touched tawnys cheek as he looked away from the male to tawny meeting his eyes.

Jake scoffed and then stuck his hands in his pockets, walking off leaving the two while he thought of their next encounter.

Tawny gripped onto Blair, his eyes were hollow. Blair could definitely tell he was spooked and a little out of it.

The small male frowned and stuck his face in Blair's chest, as if he were hiding.

Blair picked tawny up and let him bury his face in his neck, he rubbed his back as they left. He walked out to the truck and climbed in the backseat with tawny in his lap. He started the truck and pointed the ac at them as he held him to his chest.

"Hey, baby look at me..you're okay I got you," he spoke soothingly gently caressing his cheek.

Starting to hyperventilate, therefore mimicking the feeling of when he could barely breathe the day he got shot.

He let out a broken breathless whimper. Tears forming in his eyes and not being able to put together what he wanted to say or what he was feeling.

He just sat there crying.

Blair cradled him holding him in his lap, he leaned back settling and allowed him to cry waiting for him to calm down.

He rubbed his back as he looked down at him, "hey, hey breath my love. Slow breaths, you are okay. You are safe. You are strong. Clear your mind best as possible..breath,"

Tawny had placed his face in his hands, as he had stopped gasping for air like a young child did when it's parent had just popped them. The uncontrollable short sucking in of breaths and the reoccurring tears.

He sat there, finally Blair's voice registered in his brain and he looked at him.

More tears streamed down his face.

Blair touched his cheek, his eyes searching over his face. "Do you want to talk about it?" He asked as he rubbed his back.Tawny's eyes fell to his own hands.

He was silent for a bit until he spoke, "He triggered me... I think. All I heard was my attacker... but if it were h-him... I would have known... r-r-right?" Tawny asked.

He rubbed small circles on his back and he kissed his temple. "I believe..if it were him yes I believe you possibly could. Our bodies and the world has weird ways of showing it or helping you realize the situation. Listen to yourself or ask help to help see if you should listen. You're smart and strong baby."

Tawny teared up again at what Blair said.

Blair frowned lightly taking his hand in his own.

Tawny nuzzled against his chest, slowly calming down.

"I love you, so much. I uhm, don't know what'd I'd do without you..."

He couldn't help but tear up once again, "I'm glad I bumped into you...I can't stress it enough. You go on about how much I've helped you but in many ways you saved me."

Blair kissed his cheek resting his cheek against tawnys. " I love you too..I'm glad I helped..and can. You mean the world to me,"

Finally a small smile broke out across Tawny's mouth.

"You too," he muttered. He moved away to wipe his face then looked at him.

"W-we should go before this eats up all your gas..." Tawny said lowly.

" meh," he said and shifted.

He got tawny to the front seat then himself buckling up and leaving the parking lot.

Tawny let him, buckling up then remained in his seat. He played with his fingers, thinking over what had just happened.

Blair drove reaching over taking his hand gently in his rubbing his thumb over it.

Tawny watched him then let him, he looked over at the driving male.

He then looked down at their hands.