Hamilsquad X Reader (Unofficial Title)

Tw; Horror, mention of disfiguration to eyes

But as I started to fall asleep everything began to shift as I entered the realm of dreams.

The room around me was dark. I sat up, feeling the silky sheets beneath me. My eyes struggled to adjust to the lack of light, I looked around and blinked. After a few moments my eyes focused on my surroundings and I was able to tell I was in my bedroom. Not the one I'd grown to love over the past few weeks, but my actual bedroom. The posters that covered the walls filled me with a deep sadness, although I couldn't completely make them out in the dark, I knew exactly what each was. I leaned over and flicked on the lamp I knew was located next to my bed.

The lamp came on and filled the room with a warm glow. I looked around, the sad feeling only worsening. I threw my legs over the side of the bed, my feet touching the cold hard wood floor.

I'm still wearing my nightgown

My heart suddenly ached with a different pain. Where were the guys?

I slipped off the bed and made my way across the room. My bare feet thumped against the wood as I made my way to my bedroom door. I slowly turned the knob, opening the door and entering the familiar hallway.

I turned the corner and entered the living room where my parents sat with my little sister, Bella.

Tears began to brim my eyes, "Mom...? Dad...? Bell... " I trailed off as they turned to me. Their eyes we're gone, in there place were empty sockets secreting a thick black liquid. My heart sunk, and fear washed over me. A shiver ran up my spine and I took a step backwards in the hallway.

"Guys...? " I called out, my voice shaky.

"Why'd you leave us Y/N?" Bella asked, turning on her side so she would be facing me. The chill in her voice froze me and I noticed that her lips where blue and her skin sickly pale, tinted blue as well. As if she'd been froze or drowned.

Drowned

The word circled through my head on loop. Had I not saved her in time?

"I... I... " I struggled to find the words I wanted to say something but, I just kept backing farther into the hall.

"Huh Y/N, why did you leave us?! " She yelled louder, standing up. My parents said nothing, watching with their dark, liquid eyes.

Tears began to stream down my face like waterfalls.
"I didn't leave... " I whispered weakly.

"Liar."

"Bella... I love you, I would never-" She cut me off with a shrill screech.

"YOU LEFT US, " The small girl charged at me and I let out a scream, throwing my arms up to shield my face and suddenly it felt like my world fell to the side, shifting me into a whole new reality.

I took my arms from my face and I now stood in a field, stars shone brightly in the sky above me. Hundreds of them, more than I've ever seen. New York lacked stars most times, and even when I was with the guys, there weren't as many as there are now. They twinkled as I struggled to catch my breath.

The grass felt wet and soft beneath my bare feet. I refocused my eyes, looking at my surroundings. There were no trees but instead a large hill. I glance around before starting up the hill.  Once I reach the top I feel my breath hitch. At the base of the hill I see thousands of soldiers.

Some donned red coats, others misfit blue.  A thick, red liquid coated the ground. I scanned the crowd of them, fighting. Gunfire, screams, and yells filled the night air.

Hesitantly I stumbled down the hill towards the soldiers. I knew who I was looking for.
The guys.

I made my way through the crowded field, to each soldier I seemed invisible. No one noticed me.

Through and through I went, but found no one. I was alone. I was invisible. Surrounded by death.

I collapsed to my knees and covered my eyes. I didn't want to be here. I wanted to go home, I wanted to be with they guys.
I wanted to forget that they were leaving... Forget that Laurens would die, forget Lafayette would leave, forget the whole Burr and Hamilton fued. I just wanted to go back to them. I wanted us to be happy.

Suddenly, the screams stopped. The gunfire, the yelling, the sounds of bodies hitting the floor... It all stopped. I opened my eyes again and looked around.
I was on the cruise ship. I looked around and saw myself and Bella, walking toward the edge just like before. I yelled, and screamed, and shrieked. I tried to tell Bella not to jump once again, but I couldn't move. I was stuck. All I could do was watch the events take place again. I saw my other self jump in after her.

Wake up.
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Wake up.
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WAKE UP.
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I hear yelling and I'm shook awake from my nightmare. I sit up straight and look around the room, my breathing is heavy but I disregard it. Alexander and John are at my either side, they'd been trying to wake me up. Concern filled their eyes and took over the expresssion on their face.

"Are you okay?" John asks, but all I can do is nod. I couldn't breathe. I couldn't speak.

Alex reached around and gently rubbed my back, helping me sit up properly before sitting down on the bed beside me.

"I'll get you some water... " John muttered as he left the room.

I turned to Alex, "How long were you trying to wake me up?"

"20 minutes, I'd guess, " he said solemnly. "What did you dream about?"

I hesitated. Do I tell him? Do I tell everyone...?

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A/N

Sup. It's been a while.
I'm not in this fandom anymore, I've said it before...
But this story gets so many interactions..
I had this chapter halfway done.
I have no clue where I wanted to take this.

But here, I give it as a peace offering.
There may be more updates.
There might not...
I can't guarantee anything
I'm sorry
I hope you have enjoyed it so far.
I know I've matured as a writer and reading back through this is... Honestly painful. Maybe I can write new stories?
Who knows..

Anyways, enjoy~

Your author,
Nana 🤍