Harry and I have talked more now. My mom and dads funerals are on Saturday. I can't believe both of my parents are gone. It not real. I just hope I can get through it. The guys are gonna be with me so I have someone to lean on. My life is hard but it's getting a little better. It just takes one step at a time. I can get through this. As long as I have support I can do it.
Saturday
Today are my parent funerals. My moms and my dads. I cried this morning knowing that my parents were gone and weren't going to be here no more. I wore a tight black dress with heals . Did my makeup and curled my hair. The boys work black. Harry wore black but had a red rose on it. I went down stairs cried a little bit with them. The cars came and we all got in. We got to the graves. The priest got done saying what he said. We laid flowers on there graves. I cried during the whole thing. Everybody came to the dinner after that. I cried and ran to the room. Harry ran after me. "Hey Lydia" Harry asked "Yes Harry" I said "you okay?" He asked "no. I lost my parents, my grandma was there but she couldn't look at me at all" I said. I cried harder. Loud sobs could be heard. "Shhhh Lydia....don't cry" Harry said. He strummed his hand through my hair. "Lydia can I ask you a question" Harry asked "yeah go ahead" I said "do you wanna be my girlfriend" Harry asked. I looked at him. I was shock but also in awe. "Yes Harry I would love to" I said. He gave me a soft and gentle kiss. I wasn't expecting this at all. I've always wanted more than this with Harry and now I've finally go it. "I love you" he said "I love you" I said back. Harry has made this day not so sad after all. I loved Harry from the first, now I know I'll love him till my last. I'm proud to say Harry Edward styles is mine and no one else's and I'm happy I'm his and no one else's. I'm so grateful to have him and the 4 amazing boys along with me and my journey. I just hope that this chapter never ends. I will always remember this day may 20,2009.