spectrum【fem!reader .lookism】

. xlix

In fact, she could almost hear the phantom voice of a proud father echoing in a dark room.

The last time that happened, she ran away the next day.

(Y/N)'s eyes shot open.

Right. Daniel Park has always been too soft by nature, that's why he's easily beaten down and molded into whatever people want him to be. But when it comes to safe spaces...surely there's only one more place he'd go to.

She dug through her pockets, hastily bringing out her phone and dialing a familiar number.

Mom.

She stared at the bright screen for a long time, watching it ring for a bit. Her heart pounded loudly against her chest. To be frank, she doesn't even understand herself why she's feeling this sudden urgency.

It was true that she liked her brother once upon a time. But she's outgrown that phase, and remembers in more clarity that years she's spent resenting him.

Still, she is reminded of that snowy day, of a hopeless Daniel Park lying in the snow.

...Perhaps she's grown soft.

In the fifth ring, her mom finally picked up.

"(Y/N)? Is that you?"

She swallows back the complicated feelings and focuses on her mom's voice.

"Hi mom. How are you?" She debates what to say next, then stops herself before she can ask about Daniel. What if he hasn't stopped by there yet? That would only make her worry and notice something was wrong.

"I was just thinking of calling you! Is there any problem?"

"...It's just been a while and I missed you, so I called."

She hears the cheerful laugh of her mother. It seems something good has happened lately, for her to seem happier than usual. She wonder what it is. Definitely not Daniel, considering the state he left Seoul in.

She doesn't want to spoil that mood.

"(Y/N) really does have the best timings. Have you and Daniel been well? No problems at school?"

She purses her lips and lies with an even tone.

After all, that's always been what she's good at.

"None at all."

She answers a few more of the older woman's question just to avoid suspicion. Sometimes, she was grateful that their mom trusts their words so much as to take each one as the truth.

When the call ended, (Y/N) was silent.

So Daniel didn't come to look for his mom. Or maybe he did, but never found the guts to approach her, because he could've thought things may only turn out as badly as it did at school.

She lets out a frustrated huff and tries to call his number. Just as expected, her call rang several time but was ultimately not answered.

(Why are you trying to find him?)

(Have you forgotten? He was ungrateful He threw aside your kindness and stepped on it mercilessly when you only wanted to help him.)

(The same thing will only happen-)

"You fucking moron," she speaks out loud, if only to cut off the intrusive thoughts that's started to creep up her head. "I hope you remember how you gave me full permission to set you straight if you do something dumb again."

(Y/N) pockets her phone again and glares at the apartment's wall.

If its a hunt he wants, why the fuck would the (h/c) haired girl give him the satisfaction of having someone look for him all over? She's not his babysitter anyway.