And so on. ( Sequal to That Night [studxstud] )

"yo Kay what's wrong? why you crying?" I was confused, she just bursted into tears outta nowhere.

"Because I feel bad...I was making a fuss out of nothing and she's seriously not okay.."

I lean closer to her, over the middle compartment, and wipe her few tears with my thumb. "You have nothing to feel bad for, your concerns were valid. Her being unwell right now doesn't invalidate that"

"Still. We have to help her...You have to help her. You heard her, this is getting serious and if she keeps being emotionally independent on alcohol shits gonna get bad. Look I know.."-she took a deep breath-"I know you miss her sometimes. Maybe you guys need to hang again or something.."

"What?"..."Kay that's really not necessary. Her coping mechanisms have nothing to do with us. We don't have to do that, wouldn't that make you uncomfortable? especially since you were hesitant about coming here today??"

"Look..none of that matters. Someone who used to mean a lot to us is sick. And if we can help then we should" she insisted.

"someone who used to mean a lot to us" stuck with me.

"Okay then." I said rubbing her thigh and giving in knowing she wouldn't take no for an answer. suddenly i remember we have a little puppy at the house.

-

A few days pass.

Since the turn of events between the hospital trip & lil puppy Judo, we've been seeing a lot more of Emina all of sudden. We're helping her through her healing process, offering healthy coping mechanisms but it's still strange as shit.

I'm not sure if it's a her thing, or if things are just changing but me and kay been kinda quiet with each other, and that ain't like us at all.
So fast forward to now; our date.

I take her somewhere for us to reminisce on how we were with each other a while back.
The aquarium.

She holds my arm as we walk.
"I remember wanting to tell you something the day we came here.." she says as she progresses into trying not to laugh. "What was it?"

We stood in front of some tiny red fish, they swam over us. "It's so embarrassing but around that time i was truly crushing on you..like bad. I wanted to make you mine but i thought i'd be getting beside myself" her face turns red.

"I wish you had" I say now standing in front of her while holding her hands. I want to say something but i'm not sure how.

"Kay, can I ask you something?" I say while I stare at the laces of my green and white nike sneakers. "What is it?"

"Ive asked this before and I know this is random especially now, but why did you decide to give me another chance? We've talked about it before but still, it's never 100% clear to me" i say while slowly looking around before making eye contact with her. "I'll tell you..or try to tell you what I really have been wanting to say, I could just never find the words. You know the day that all of that went down... 'the big reveal?'-she air quotes the big reveal-"that entire day and the few days to weeks afterwards I was thinking about you. At first I was upset. I might've not wanted to talk but you was on my mind heavy. The more I thought and my emotions calmed and my thoughts became more clear, the more I realized my feelings for you which is why I wanted to make amends. Initially I didn't like the dishonesty and feeling that I was being lead on but I didn't realize how strongly I felt for your big forehead having self. And its like, thinking back, you really ain't do nothing wrong. I was just jealous cause, and I know how cliche it is especially for women loving women relationships, but I think that's when I had started to love you."

My eyes felt glassy but I didn't let a tear slip. Kay makes me feel all types of way, but my favorite thing is I get to be as "soft" and vulnerable with her like i've never been with anyone else. She makes me feel...calm. Even when we get into it and she doesn't wanna talk to me, I never have to worry about if it's the end with her. Because I know she wouldn't leave my side and I would never leave hers. Kay is the type of women you spend your life with. I'm talkin fruit picking dates to babies to growing old and feeding birds at a park, and even then she'll still have that spark she has today.

I take a deep breath, anxious. I ask on a whim, impulse, and out of love. "What's our color scheme for our wedding?"

she looks surprised as she let out a "what?"

"What colors for our wedding?"

"are you being serious or..." she asked with a raised brow, trying not to smile.

"if I was?" i say as I keep eye contact with her, my eyes flicking down to her lips whenever she talks.

"If you were... then i'd say ice blue and white"
she said as she wrapped her arms around me.
"Big wedding or small wedding?"

"Big"

"Then afterwards.. we ain't never specified but we have talked about kids... how many we having?" I say as I wrap my arms around her too, hands at her waist.

"two..or three." she looks up at me.

"I'm dead serious like no scenario shit, i wanna make this happen, officially starting tonight. Like I wanna"-she cut me off. "I wanna marry you."

"that makes you my fiancé..we engaged right now" I say trying to fight how hard I wanna smile. "Yea?" she says with a big smile.

"Mhm" I say followed by pecking her lips with kisses. We suddenly remember other people exist and are in the aquarium. And once we realize, we see Eliza leaned up against a wall by some clownfish as if she'd been watching the whole time. Her face was smug and miserable.