Push On Through

*TW!! I HAVE WARNED YOU AGAIN!!*

- Tyler's P.O.V -

We've been on the bus for a few hours now, I have spoken to Josh, had a nap and I am now just chilling in the sofa area with Ruby, who continues to type away on her laptop. Does that girl ever stop? The answer to that is no, she doesn't stop. She is taking over our socials for the tour, so me and Josh can rest and focus on performing and meeting fans. It makes sense for her to take over things when she is the one taking the photos of us on stage and off stage. I trust her with that. What I don't trust her with though is how she won't tell me if she starts feeling bad again. I have a sneaking feeling she is already falling back into her habits. She's grown weaker, not eating as much, the colour in her face has faded. She doesn't think I can see how much makeup she uses to cover it up. She is wearing it more often now and I'm worried. Like I've stated before, she is so pretty, she doesn't even need it. She switches between scrolling on her phone and laptop and typing things up. I offered to pay her for her work this summer but she said no, she just wants the practice in. I think she is using it as a distraction. Josh practically rolls out of his bunk, me and Ruby turn to face him, he smiles.

"Anyone else hungry? I'm so hungry, when are we stopping?" He asks as he makes his way over to sit next to me. 

"I think it's like 10 minutes, did you read the group chat? I think we're going out with the guys to eat at a Chinese place" I say to him, and to Ruby as I don't think she's even read the chat. 

"Sounds so good, I could murder some noodles right now" Josh licks his lips, resting back on the sofa. 

"Ruby does that sound good to you?" I look over at her, she lifts her head and looks at me

"Yeah sounds good, I could eat" I'm glad to hear her say that, I need her to eat. I have to keep my eye on her more now. If she won't tell me when she isn't well, I need to look out for all and any signs that she may unintentionally give me. Josh is looking for them too but not as much as I am. He doesn't think anything is wrong, but she's my sister and I have noticed. 

"Nice, I'm gonna get washed up and ready for when the bus stops" I say to the both of them, getting up from my seat and walking toward the bathroom. I use the toilet, and wash my hands. I stop, looking up in the mirror. I fix my hair a little and smile as I hear Josh and Ruby laughing. I'm glad she isn't all doom and gloom. Maybe Josh was right, maybe she is fine. I should trust her shouldn't I? 

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- Ruby's P.O.V -

The bus stops and Josh leads the way off of it. The others said to meet them down the street a little and then we will walk together to the place we're eating.  

"Hey man" Pete says to Josh, the boys all say their hellos again, I'm behind them. I don't fit in with them, not that I thought I would. I'm here to do my job and that's it. I pull my phone out and go onto the boys Instagram, I take a photo of them all walking ahead to go on their story. I type up a caption about the show tonight and post it. Josh notices I am behind them all and slows his pace. 

"Hey Rubes you alright? You can walk with the rest of us you know" Does he think I stay behind because I don't fit in? 

"I was just taking a story for your Instagram, I'm all good don't worry" I say to him with a smile. He smiles back. We arrive at the Chinese place, walking through the door, Josh walks in behind me. I see the others pointing up to the menu and talking, I don't want anything but I need to eat to keep up appearances. 

"Ruby what would you like?" Patrick asks me, smiling. 

"Can I just have the chicken chow mien please?" He nods his head, and writes it on his phone. The others tell Patrick what they want and he gestures us to find a seat whilst him and Joe order the food. I sit in a booth with Tyler, Brendon and Pete. Tyler sits opposite me, Brendon next to me and Pete opposite Brendon. I feel a little strange sitting next to Brendon, he's a new person I have to play pretend around. I mean they all are. I have to put on the best show I can. Especially whilst eating out with everyone.