Twisted journey

This chapter is only of flashbacks, some of Sarah's pov and some boring stuff too. Please bear with it T_T

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Day - 1

Dear diary,

I lost someone I love and who loves me back again. Why is it hurting so much?? Is he hurt too or maybe he will hate me. The eyes which were filled with love for me will be filled with hatred for me.

And I'll never get to see him, I'll never feel his touch again. That's why I begged her to at least lend me a day. Now I can live with those memories, remembering his giggles, his stares, his touches, his lips, his blue eyes which made me fall harder for him.

I know nobody will ever love me like he did and I will never love someone like I loved him. I will never see him ever again. I'll never even experience love again but the love he gave me for a few months is enough for me to live.

At least I don't regret it because I told him how much I love him and bid him goodbye.

I don't believe in prayers anymore. Because someone like god is really present, he'll never make someone's life so pathetic. Nor do I believe in karma because I don't think I ever did something so horrible to experience this.

The only horrible thing I did was to leave my love and I'll bear the consequences.

But if God is really present, the only thing that I want from him is to give Ryan all the happiness he deserves. I hope he finds someone who will love him the way he deserves, not a pathetic person like me. I knew the very first moment he confessed to me that I didn't deserve him. But I was so selfish and a horrible person that I took advantage of him, his love for healing my heart.

I also wish God that we should never meet in the future because I can't see him again. I want him to be with somebody but I can't endure the sight. I know I am being ridiculous but I can't live after seeing my love with someone else in his arms. There is no way that he'll ever want to see me too. He'll move on because the only feeling he must have for me will be hate. Pure hate.

~ Sarah

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(Third person's pov)

Flashback… (the day Sarah went to her aunt's)

The room was silent, Sarah's heart beating crazily. She was wondering if her aunt really had a change of heart. Maybe she never meant bad for Sarah, actually she really loves her and the strict behaviour was for her good.

“Break up with that guy.” Elizabeth Avery said with a blank expression.

“What!?! I can't do that, aunt. Aunt!! See I never asked anything from you. It's the only thing I want from you. Please…. Please…. I'll listen to you except this. Pleasee.” A sob escaped her with even the thought of leaving Ryan took her breath away.

“Sarah, I really love that boy. You should stay away from him.”

“What do you mean?”

“The boy with whom I fixed your wedding is the son of a highly influential politician. His name is Williams. If I marry you of to his son. He said he'll give a large amount of money from which I'll be able to marry your sisters away.”

“Why me, huhh!?! Why don't you marry one of your daughters with him.”

“I already did. But William wants you as his daughter-in-law. And he is determined to marry you with his son. If you back off, I will give your boyfriend's information to him and he will not take a single second to make your boyfriend's life hell. I already took information about your boyfriend with his help. He is a businessman’s son, but he has no support.” She said with a blank face.