a devils pact (yan. Oikawa x f.reader)

"how is work holding up?" you ask and she grunts.

"it's quiet stressing. you won't believe how hard it was for me to suddenly switch from day to night! I was exhausted for almost a week every day!" she rants but then she goes quiet and a soft sigh escapes her lips and makes it's way through your phone for you to hear.

"but it's worth it" she says.

"it's amazing to see a work in progress so close up and I think you will really like the movie once it comes out."

"really?" you question and turn over in your bed to lay on your stomach.

"yes you will" she answers and sounds a little cocky.

"tell me about it" you say but she refuses.

you try to make her tell you for a few minutes until eventually giving up and promising her you will watch the movie once it's released.

you think of something to tell her but nothing comes to mind straight away.

it's quiet for a few moments before Miwa breaks the silence.

"how is school going?"

you're silent for a moment before you sigh.

"she told you, didn't she?" you ask with a quiet voice.

Miwa knows not to ask you about school.

she knows your grades aren't too good and that you don't have any friends, that you struggle with it all in general and that the topic makes your mood drop.

and your mom keeps her updated on everything so there was never really the need to tell her anyways as she was always included.

"of course she did, you know how she is" Miwa says and you can hear some quiet rustling in the background on her side as she keeps speaking.

"but she was so happy to tell me you got a friend..I don't know why you seem to categorize it as a bad thing. she is so happy you got someone you can spend your teenage years with. why don't you want to ease her anxiety about you never having friends?"

in your mind you can see and hear your mother telling Miwa excited about Yumi, you imagine her smile and her pacing around the bottom floor like she always does when she's on a call.

"I'm just...I'm scared that it will end..." you say and you feel your heart getting heavy.

you haven't really thought about Yumi's and yours friendship.

you were just happy about it, glad and thankful.

you shoved your worries about it aside, scared to manifest a bad outcome.

"I'm scared I will dissapoint mom again...I'm scared to think about being alone again at school.. I just kinda want to live in the moment you know..?"

"I understand" Miwa says and she really sounds like she does which takes some weight off your shoulders.

the rustling gets a little louder and you look at the clock in your room.

"do you have to get back to work?" you ask.

"yes I do, sadly. I'd love to keep calling with you but I really gotta go.." she says and apologizes.

"oh no don't worry about it, it's fine really. I'm just glad we finally got to hear each other again" you smile even though she can't see it.

the rustling suddenly stops and Miwa is quiet.

"(y/n)" she says your name carefully but demanding.

"text me whenever, call me whenever. it might take a short while for me to answer, but I'm always here for you. If you need me I will drop everything and get to you. tell me everything you may not wanna tell mom or dad, just please, please let your pain out every once in a while" she says.

your taken aback for a moment and feel your throat close up as if you're homesick for a place you can never return to.

"I will" you say and for a moment you feel like you can't breath.

"I love you, goodbye" she says and you return those words to her before she hangs up.

you put your phone down and roll over on your back again as the first tear rolls down the corner of your eye.

you went to brush your teeth in the bathroom and came back to go to sleep when your phone light up.

'i can't sleep'

it's Oikawa.

for a moment you decide to just ignore his message, to tell him that you were already asleep when he sent it if he asks about it.

but you change your mind.

maybe he can get you to think of different thought, distract you.

and you've ignored his one or two of his text messages already, you don't want him to put an end to the deal you both made because he feels you don't actually want it.

but you do, so you text him back.

'why? are you not tired?'

it doesn't take long for Oikawa to text back.

'i dunno'

'have you even tried to fall asleep?'

the answer he sends you a moment later is short before s longer one follows.

'no' - 'why aren't you asleep yet?'

you return his words to him.

'i dunno but I'm going to sleep now, you should too'

he doesn't answer for such a long time that you're already in bed and your phone laying on your nightstand before your phone buzzes with s response.

'are you worried about me?' he asks.

you huff and decide to not answer even though for a split second you want to type 'maybe' into your phone.

with your plan of having Oikawa distracting you somewhat working you fall asleep.