video message || minizerk || completed

'You know when you first started getting bad?

We had been a thing for about six months. Like, a couple.

It just felt like a coincidence, you know? Like, I know that's probably stupid. But it just felt wrong.'

I felt him flinch next to me.

'You never felt wrong- just... just getting you to focus on us when you couldn't even look after yourself did.

Thinking about it now? I was an idiot. I left because you couldn't help yourself- so basically, I left you to destroy yourself.

And it's haunting me, Josh.

All I wanted was for you to get better- even if it meant I got worse. I just wanted you to feel fine.

I just didn't want to feel like you were stuck with me.

I just wanted you to be okay.'

Josh sat up, placed a hand on my heart.

'You mentioned 'finding someone better'.' he muttered.

'But no one will ever love me in the way you do. And I don't want anyone to.'

And then we kissed.

And it felt right.

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