「 intractable | kang daniel 」 ?

Pain

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I stared down at my coffee thinking what I have to do. My chest still feels heavy. I left my phone at home trying to avoid Daniel's calls. It was hard for me but I think it's the best thing to do. I haven't touched my phone since that night. If I do, I'm afraid I'll do the wrong thing. I skipped school yesterday and dad doesn't know. I feel bad for doing it but it was nice to escape for a while.

Instead of going to school I found myself finding my way towards the bridge. However, I didn't take long and left after a while. I wanted to speak to someone, rant and cry my heart out but couldn't. I don't want to involve my friends in this problem. And I'm not the type of person to cry so much about a thing, they'll find it unusual. But even if I was like that, I couldn't help to sob and cry when I was alone.

I wasn't like this before. I tend to keep all the pain to myself when I was lonely or upset about something. But now I realised those pains I've felt before are nothing compared to the pains I'm suffering right now. It's more painful when it involves a very special person, a person I love.

I looked down on the table as the corner of my eyes started heating up. I shouldn't cry, not here. Sometimes I wanted to rip my heart out if possible so I won't feel any pain.

I want to forget about everything, dad's harsh words, his hurtful ways of controlling my life as if it was his own and not his daughter's. I wanted to forget that I have to make a hard decision, to disobey my father and let him hate me for the rest of our lives or leave the person I loved the most.

But even though I wanted to forget I still wouldn't trade anything for the memories Daniel gave me. I treasured them a lot. I treasured him the most. He's the one who gave me happiness I didn't know I could have.

Thinking of him makes my heart thump so loud. Seeing him makes my heart race so fast. Staying by his side felt like my heart was going to explode. Kissing him felt like I was gonna die from his intoxicating sweetness.

The memories when I first met him and I felt an unusual feeling I never felt before. The way my heart started beating unusually fast when I meet his gaze. The feelings I felt when he told me he likes me, he loves me. That first time I felt his lips on mine and and actually felt greedy to taste it again.

No, I'd never trade them for anything in this world.

I stood up and turned towards the door but my breath was caught up in my throat. My heart started beating so loud at the sight of the person my heart longs for.

He was there standing outside the glass door looking ravishing as ever. I gulped as I saw the same longing and shock in his eyes. I was frozen in my spot. I couldn't think of anything other than his strong physique and presence in front of me.

He made his way inside and called out to me. I wanted to run to his arms and hug him tightly. I want to feel his warmth when he wraps his arms around me. It's what I need, it's what I'm longing for but my heart sank as soon as I saw the other person who went inside the cafe. My heart fell as soon as she linked her arms around him. "There you are, I told you not to go without me." Minji said flirtatiously.

I stared at them both blankly as I felt a heart wrenching pain inside my chest. I wanted to look away but the silly me wouldn't. As if I wanted to watch how close they are, as if I wanted to hurt myself more with this sight. Daniel's jaw tightened as he moved away from Minji's arms.

"What the hell are you doing here? Why did you follow me?" Daniel asked through gritted teeth. Minji gave me a sideway glance before looking up to Daniel and reaching out to touch him. "Going for our date, of course." She smirked even though Daniel brushed her hands away. "I told you to leave me alone." He was mad, alright. I know it too well but I couldn't give a single care about it.