Stupid Triangle

"Babe please come"

"I can't"

"Why not?"

"Well first my uterus is trying to kill itself and second your sisters hate me. I don't wanna be where I'm not wanted" I confessed.

"I want you there. Please" she pouted and gave me her puppy dog eyes.

"L-"

"Pleeeaaassssse Kait. Filming is more fun when you're there" she said wrapping her arms around my waist.

"Mmmhmm fine but is there gonna be paint powder involved in this one. If there is I'm not going I'm still mad at you for dumping the whole bucket of it on me"

"No but come on it was the red powder. You're favorite color, and it was funny how after you sneezed and it looked like the powder came out"

"Oh yea sooooo funny" I said sarcastically. "Anyway just let me get dressed before your sisters, and you look adorable" I told her and kissed her forehead.

•••

Getting into the van with the Cimorelli's was awkward. I looked over at Lisa who was in the drivers seat and gave her a half smile. I noticed she was wearing my shirt. I seriously think I have more clothes over at there house then I do in mine.

"So Kaitlyn what happened between you and Andrea" Christina asked me. How the hell does she know about us?! Andrea and I never announced our relationship to the public. Wait. I glared over at Dani and she mouthed 'sorry'

"It didn't work out"

"Why didn't it work out?" Ugh Christina is so nosy.

"I just didn't feel the same"

"Then why did you go out with her"

"Ryan set me up with her. It was best if we stayed friends"

The car ride was quiet except for the fact that music was playing. At times Lisa and I would exchange glances at each other in the review mirror. Lauren rested her head on my shoulder. I saw Lisa looking at us through the mirror with a hurt expression. It honestly did hurt seeing her hurt. I never intended to hurt Lisa, I'm just a fucking idiot, and suck at love. Sometimes I wish that I was never invited to VidCon so I wouldn't of met them. At the same time I might of met Lisa since I saw her at the beach like a week before. Why couldn't I had just met Lisa then everything probably would've been fine. But here I am going back and forth from Lisa to Lauren. I know it's wrong, it's all just confusing, my heart says it wants Lisa my head says it wants Lauren.

•••

The girls were filming their cover for Really Don't Care, Christina made me hold the camera to film Lisa's part and it hurt she was lip singing "I never want you back into my life" and I was holding the camera so I felt like she was trying to say something.

"Alright let's take a break" Christina said and I handed the camera back to her.

"What no pandas?" Lisa asked when I pulled out my phone. She was referring to how I would always have my panda case on my phone but today I had my galaxy case on it.

I chuckled. "No a fan sent this in the mail. Why do you miss my pandas?"

"Well it's always the case that you have on 24/7 it's a bit strange seeing something else on it"

"We never finished reading Allegiant together" I commented.

"Yea that's true"

"Maybe you could...come over and we can finish it...maybe tomorrow. Or whenever you can, you don't have to is just an idea I get if you don't want to I was jus-"

"Kait"

"What?"

"Your babbling again" Lisa laughed.

"Oh sorry" I said awkwardly.

"But yea I can come over tomorrow"

"Great" I smiled.