Stupid Triangle

A/N important note at the end of the chapter!

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Well the trip to Florida was...interesting. Every night Lauren would try to cuddle with me but I would pull away, not because I didn't want to but because of Christina. When I started dating Lauren for the first time she's hated me with a passion, then when I hated Andrea it got worse. She thinks I'm playing Lauren and Lisa's feeling, which I don't do on purpose, I really don't, I just have all these confusing feelings that I can't seem to make out. Andrea doesn't talk to me anymore, I wouldn't blame her though, she still talks to Ryan. The CimFam has grown to hate me and my fandom so much, both fandoms hate each other with a passion. Since we got back from Florida I haven't spoken to the Cimorelli's expect for Dani. Right now I was at the abandoned house on stilts over the water, sitting on a bucket watching the ocean, with a white blanket with colorful cartoon birds on it wrapped around me since it was cold. It's around 7:00pm so the sun was starting set, it was quite beautiful but I've been things more beautiful. I heard footsteps coming from behind me, I turned around and saw Lisa walking towards me.

"What are you doing here?" I asked.

"I could say the same about you"

"I just came out here to think. How'd you know I'd be here?"

"I went to your house and your mom said you weren't home and that you were in a bad mood before you left. This is the first place I thought you'd be."

She cares. Lauren wouldn't notice if something would be wrong.

"Well here I am" I half smiled.

"And I see you still have the blanket I gave you" Lisa smiled.

"Well it's warm, and cuddly, like you"

"What was that?"

"Nothing.." I lied. "Hmm let's see you're wearing my beanie, my shirt, and my shoes" I smiled/pointed out too her grey beanie, black t shirt, and white slip on vans. The only think she was wearing that wasn't mine was her leopard print skirt.

"Yea, I just.."

"It's fine" I smiled. "You know I've always loved when you wear my clothes."

"Yea but I don't get when you wear beanies in summer it's so hot"

"I feel naked without a beanie" I confessed. Lisa grabbed a bucket setting it next to me face down and sat on it.

"The sun set is really beautiful tonight"

"Yea but I've seen things more beautiful things then this" I said turning my head to Lisa. "And I'm seeing one right now" Lisa blushed, I saw her shiver and rubbed her arm with her hand. I moved myself closer to her wrapping my arm along with the blanket around her shoulder. Lisa rested her head on my shoulder, and we watch the sunset together.

"Why can't we just be together" Lisa blurted out, I let out a sigh and turned my head to look at her.

"Lise I've said this so many times, I love you, I really do"

"Then why can't we just be together"

"I want to I really do, but your family already hates me, I'm dating Lauren, I have feelings for her, and I have feelings for you as well. It just all so confusing. I don't know rather to listen to my heart or head. I just have to sort out my feelings"

"I'm not gonna wait for you forever." Lisa confessed.

"I know, Lise I love you, more then anything, you're the first person I've said that too, first real, serious girlfriend, first love. You're the first person I fell in love with, and I mean real love"

"I'm not gonna lie Kait, you were my first kiss, and serious relationship"

"I'm honored to be hour first kiss Lise"

"The thing is I don't wanna hurt you Kait in a long run"

"It'd be a privilege to have my heart broken with you" I smiled.

"What do you even see in me? I'm a grenade and at some point I'm going to blow up and I would like to minimize the casualties, okay?"

I laughed. "Pretty girl" I started, referring to the old nickname I gave Lisa. "Wait I think I should change your name to beautiful girl because you're not just pretty on the outside, but on the inside you're beautiful. Lisa you're drop dead gorgeous, when I first met you and I mean actually met not just skating by on the beach, I thought you were so pretty but then I got to know you, and I thought you weren't just beautiful on the outside but on the inside as well. Lisa you're perfect, you may say you aren't but you are, you're my kind of perfect. Lisa I'm in love with you, and I'm not in the business of denying myself the simple pleasure of saying true things. I'm in love with you, and I know that love is just a shout into the void, and that oblivion is inevitable, and that we're all doomed and that there will come a day when all our labor has been returned to dust, and I know the sun will swallow the only earth we'll ever have, and I am in love with you" by the time I finished my speak, Lisa had tears filling her eyes, she was smiling as well. "Hey don't cry, you're too beautiful to be crying" I smiled, whipping her tears with my thumb.

"It's just" Lisa sniffled before she started speaking again. "You say all these things that I've never heard" Lisa told me choking on her tears.

"Lise you deserve to hear them everyday. I wanna be able to tell you all these words, all these things your heart has never heard. I just wanna get all my stupid feelings out of the way so we can be together happily" I said resting my forehead against hers. I looked into her brown orbs as she looked into my blue ones. My eyes went from her eyes to her lips serval times, craving them so badly. "I'm gonna kiss you now." I told her, she nodded. I leaned in and pressed my lips against hers softly. Lisa cupped my cheek with her hand, our lips moving together perfectly. I gently took her hand that was resting on my cheek and intertwined our fingers together.

When we pulled we were both smiling, and I kissed the tip of her nose which caused Lisa to smile even wider and blush as well. When she blushed she turned her head so my nose was on the side of her cheek. I smiled and placed a kiss on her cheek.

"You're so adorable when you blush" I commented. Lisa rested her head on my shoulder as I placed my lips on the top of her head.

"Why can't it always be like this?"

"Because I'm an idiot." I said truthfully.

"Wanna hear a joke?" She asked.

"Sure"

"Knock knock"

"Who's there?" I asked.

"Myth"

"Myth who?"

"I myth you" Lisa told me.

"I myth you too Lise. More then you know."

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A/N okay so I was planning on updating on Saturdays but I have my first race this Saturday so I don't think I'll be able to do it that day. The race is at the beach and were leaving at 5am and Idk when I'm gonna be back. So don't expect an update this Saturday. I love you guys a lot and be happy because you deserve happiness. I love you❤️