When does this end? || Lazarbeam x reader

(Y/n) POV

"Hey (Y/n), let's go upstairs."
Kath grabbed my hand and pulled me up the stairs and into her room. I could feel the tension in the air as I whisked away.
*When we got into her room*

"So, how are things with you and Lannan?"
"Well, we've only known each other for a few days now."
"Have you had sex?"
"OH MY GOD KATH." Clearly Kath was the straight forward type. I didn't really mind, and she made me feel comfortable.
"So are you and Lannan official?" Kath questioned in a more serious tone.
"Not really, but we decided to stay exclusive."
She lit up almost immediately. "Did you see how Lachy was looking at you!!???! And I saw that blush sister."
"Shut up..."
Kath and I talked for a while about all things boys, relationships, and obviously Fortnite which I know absolutely nothing about.

*Meanwhile downstairs*
Also Lannan's POV

As soon as (Y/n) and Kath left, an awkward silence filled the room. I noticed the way Lachy was looking at (Y/n), and I saw her blush. The only thing I could do was hold (Y/n) tightly reminding her I was there. My heart sank to the floor. Is this really happening again?
"Are you and (Y/n) friends?" Lachy asked
"Not exactly, but we are talking."
"So I still have a chance. Good" I felt blood rush through my body. (Y/n) was, is the one thing I have, and I'm not going to let Lachy take her away from me.
"No actually we are exclusive and she wants to be with me."
"That won't stick buddy."
I couldn't control myself. I punched Lachy directly in the face. I was so infuriated. He does this shit every fucking time and I was sick of it. I grabbed Lacy by the collar and hulled him outside. "Leave you bloody bastard." I shouted. I slammed the door shut and closed my eyes. I heard a faint voice call out "Lannan." It was (Y/n). I turned around to see tears welling up in her eyes.
"I think I'm going to call a cab." She said
"No. (Y/n) let me drive you home."
"No. I don't want to be near someone so aggressive. I've had my fair share of that bullshit before." She said as she grabbed her stuff and gave Kath a hug. "Bye everyone, it was nice meeting you all." As I watched (Y/n) walk outside I felt my stomach clench and tear fill my eyes. I went to the kitchen grabbed a bottle of Vodka and headed to the guest bedroom. "Lannan don't do this." Marcus said seemingly worried. "Fuck off mate!"
He grabbed my arm and tried to pull me back. Despite how strong he is, I was able to push him to the floor and go about my business. I surfed through some YouTube and drank my sorrows away. That's when I saw it. (Y/n) had a YouTube channel. I watched every single one of her videos and cried myself to sleep. I know, I haven't know her for long, but I really was falling for her. She was just gorgeous.

(Y/n) POV

I hauled a cab as went back to my house. I cried all the way their, and didn't bother talking to the driver. When I got home I stormed into the house and up to my room. To anyone, I might have been over reacting. But, I've been through hell and back and I couldn't trust someone who could get easily triggered. Lannan was sweet, and didn't seem to have an angry bone in his body. But seeing him upset like that brought back horrible memories. I just needed a break from everything. That's when I realized I hadn't posted a YouTube video in over a week. I really didn't want to film, but I knew I had to. I was a small YouTuber with only 150k subs. Majority of the time, I didn't tell people about my channel. It was never something I though was important. I grabbed my camera and began to record.
"Hey guys, this will be a quick video because I'm only updating on my current state. I just moved in with my best friend to Sydney! And I will definitely do a house tour soon. I met someone as well. Things were great, but I think it's over. Maybe we were moving too quickly. I didn't really know him too well, and let's just say he wasn't who I thought he was. You guys know what I've been through, so trusting isn't something that comes easily for me. Anyways, I plan on doing a lot of videos here and I know they will be great. Until next time..."
I stopped recording and didn't even bother editing. I uploaded the video and within a few minutes, I received multiple comments. My subs were pretty active, but this was definitely not usual.

Joana Cecil: Were you crying?😭😭❤️
Rebecca Lorhd: OMG (Y/n) is everything ok? Clearly you were crying.
Backdropshoos: What's his name, let me at him🤬🤬
Itsmylife: We are here for you bby😘❤️
Lucus beck: Idiot. He really fucked up a chance with you. You're stunning and have an amazing personality. Dm me.

I smiled. I had been watching Lucus for a while now, and we have exchanged a few texts here and there. I didn't bother reading anymore. I got a notification.
*Lazarbeam has subscribed to your channel*
Shit.

Sorry I've been MIA. I have no idea what to right and I'm honestly getting bored of this story. I'll be starting I new story soon and I hope that ones better. Should I continue this, or should I just give up?