When does this end? || Lazarbeam x reader

*Lazarbeam has subscribed to your channel*
Shit.

Now what? How tf did he even find my channel. This is all too much too fast. Right as I finished making that statement in my head, I receive another notification. It was a text from Lucus.

Lucus💙💙:
Hey (Y/n). What's good?

You:
Hey Lucus. It's been so longggg.

Lucus💙💙:
Too long.
I heard you finally moved to Sydney. Are you trying to be closer to me😉😉

You:
You wish🤣🤣

Lucus💙💙:
I was wondering if you wanted to hangout tmr. Like a movie or something?

You:
Sounds perfect.
Around 7ish?

Lucus💙💙:
Perfect.
I'll pick you up ma.

You:
Ok💙
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I instantly blushed when he called me ma. I always had a thing for Lucus, obviously before Lannan. I'm not going to lie, I really did miss Lannan, but right now he didn't seem like someone I could be with. All I wanted was some time and space. I began to drift off into sleep...

The next morning

I woke up at 11:28. It was already pretty late so I decided to put on some comfy sweats and a t-shirt. I watched Netflix and waited for my date or "hangout" with Lucus. While I was looking for something good to watch, I saw a notification on my tv pop up (smart tv).
New video from Lazarbeam: I miss you

I click immediately. As I watched tears began to flow like a stream coming down my face. I could see the pain in Lannan's eyes. He was hurting, and even though he was next door I hadn't seen any sort of life. No members from click came over, he hadn't been doing any dumb shit, nor have I heard him rage at fortnite. It was almost as if he was dead. I began to realize that he never came home. He was still at the click house. "If you see this, please answer your phone. I miss you so much. I want to spend time with you, that won't ever change. Please (Y/n)." I began to ball my eyes out. What was I doing? I missed Lannan, and we were both hurting. I left my house and got into the car. I called Lucus and told him I couldn't make it. He was disappointed but understanding. When I got to the click house I softly knocked on the door still crying. Elliot answered the door. "Hey Elliot. Is..."
He embraced me in a hug.
"You've been gone for one day and he's already a mess. He's upstairs."
I marched upstairs and opened the door to his room. There he was, the most amazing man I had ever met in my entire life. "(Y/N)!" He exclaimed. "Oh god, I missed you so much." We both started balling into each others shoulders. Sure, you could say this was cliche in every way possible, but this was simply bliss. Being in his arms made me feel safe. Like nothing could hurt us. "Lannan, I'm so sorry. I need you. I shouldn't have-"
"I know, baby. I know."
Lannan put his hands on my waist and began to kiss me softly. He trailed down to my neck and left love bites all over. I couldn't get up enough of him. I wanted him everywhere and anywhere. He picked my up and strode over to the bed. He laid me down and stated to kiss the weak spot on my neck. He went from a gentle man, to someone who was seemingly hungry for me. I needed him, and he needed me. Despite my better judgment, I gave in. I gave him every part of me for his exploration. We were like a pair of socks. Useless apart, but necessary together. At this moment, I knew. I was becoming an addict, and Lannan was my drug.

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Sorry for the garbage
chapter. I would really appreciate if you guys commented literally anything. It really helps me know that you guys are reading this. Also WE ARE 23RD ON LANNAN!!! I never would have expected to get any views at all. I love you guys soooooo much❤️❤️ Also, if you like llil.yas, Vereena sayed, or Jabez Vill please go read the story a friend and I are working on. It's called "Senior year || Jabez x Reader". It's a bit difficult to find so just type in our user name @bhadbhabiess. THERE IS A TON OF SWEARING BTW. Until next time.