The Breaking Point - Kirisuna

Asuna's Pov:

It was the day after Alice cleared the misunderstanding. I still had a lot of mixed emotions. And a lot of questions. Why Kirito avoids telling people when he's in a relationship? Why does he never set boundaries with his friends? Why is he always keeping me in the dark with projects that involve risking his safety and girls that like him? Even if he didn't emotionally cheat on me with Alice, he seemed to care about her a lot, letting her get away with things I could never do. Sinon was someone Kirito cared a lot about too. I wanted to be treated special, but that's hard when in other cases he treats his girl friends the same as me.

I forgive Kirito for what happened. In fact, I already forgave him for all the misdoings he's done before. I just can't forget how I felt during those times. How much it pained me to be jealous of people closer to my boyfriend than I was. I guess I should start saying ex. That hurt too.

I kept the break-up a secret from my mother. I didn't need her rejoicing over my heartbreak. I did however tell my dad. I trusted my dad. He's always been caring and understanding. He once told me to never settle for less, because I deserved a good life. Which is what every dad tells their daughter. But he worked hard for the family's fortune, so I believed him. He gave me the courage to stand up for myself.

In these past few days, I felt more alone than ever. There was no one I felt like I could trust and confide in. Everyone loved Kirito. Everyone felt bonded to him. I could leave for all they cared, it was Kirito's validation they were after most of the time. It was times like this when I wish I had Yukki. Someone to guide me in the right direction with my best interest at heart. I used to be stronger... more myself. Kirito distracted me, So now I'm dedicating myself to myself. That means prioritizing me and separating from Kirito.

I promised Kirito I would talk to him privately in the game. I needed to sort a few things out. Just to give me closure and a new start. To at least try to get rid of these horrible feelings.

I logged back into ALO. I came a little early so I could rehearse what to say. When I walk to the cabin door, I heard mumbles and decided to press my ear up to the door. I guess he's here early too.

"Daddy, what are you going to do?"

"Yui. For the last time. I. Don't. Know" he seemed frustrated. I didn't want to listen anymore in case I heard something I didn't want to hear. I slowly enter the cabin. Yui and Kirito were in the living room already.

"ASUNA," Kirito said surprised.

"Mommy!" Yui rushed over to hug my face.

"Hi, Yui! Do you think you can leave me and your dad to talk alone? Just for a little bit, I promise." I needed to say what I wanted before I lost the courage. Yui flew away quickly. I had no idea where she went. I grabbed Kirito's hand with two of my hands and pulled him to our lime couch. His hands were shaky and cold...

"Asuna..." his voice was in a somber-like whisper. Like he was a ghost.

"Kirito. I just want you to hear me out. " He nodded and I took a deep breath. "I know that I explained a lot of things that I felt went wrong in our relationship regarding how you treat other girls. I'm mostly heartbroken more than angry. It felt like you didn't value our love sometimes. It felt like I was in your way. After you saved me from a cage and our friend group grew, when you felt free from having to save me, it felt like your feelings for me faded. And after feeling that, I realized that I lost myself. I realized that my love for you was the center of my life and that was not reciprocated. I understand that you have bigger responsibilities to worry about too. All in all, I think not being together is healthier for both of us... And..." I started tearing up, damn. "I know that Yui has a closer relationship with you and it's weird for us to be associated after we move on. So I think it's also best that you be Daddy. I'll be just Asuna to Yui". Tears rolled down my face slowly as I spoke. Still holding his hand, I could feel Kirito shake a little harder. I sat in silence for a bit while Kirito processed what I said.