Unconditional Love

Warning:  This chapter may have some content that may be triggering, please proceed with caution.

Thursday, August 25th

I'm not sure what's going on.  I can hear people talking around me, and sometimes talking to me.  My memory is kind of fuzzy.  I remember my meeting with Preston and going to my appointment with Roman, that's it.

I want to rub my hand over my belly to feel my son, and let him know that I love him and everything will be okay.  However, I can't move.  My entire body feels like it's chained down.  This is the first time that I have not drifted back into darkness within five minutes of coming out of it. 

Dr. Jeff probably gave me some medicine to keep me asleep to make sure I stayed on bedrest.  He could have just called the twins.  They would have made damn sure I was off my feet.  I miss them, I hope they have arrived and are ready to help me set up my baby's room.  I wanted to do it with Roman, but his hands are full with Asia. 

I wonder what day it is.  I know it is not Monday anymore.  I'm hungry.  That means my baby is too.  I don't feel him moving, but then again I only feel a weight over my body.

"Princess, I wish that you would wake up.  I love you so much.  I'm sorry that I failed you.  I should have been here to protect you and my grandson."

What is he talking about?  I'm fine, the baby is fine.  I try talking to him, but nothing happens.

"Brother, she is going to wake up.  Don't lose faith."

"It's been four days, Keli."

Four?  What's going on?

"Son, you need to get some rest and eat something."

Grandmother?   She left Hawaii?

"She's right, Kekino.  Just have a few bites."

Grammy?  Something is wrong.  Someone needs to wake me up.

"Let's go to the waiting room.  Your sister has everything set up.  Give Roman some time to spend with her."

"This is his fault, mother."

"Kino, that child had nothing to do with this.  You know it.  She's the love of his life.  He did what he thought would protect her.  You all thought it would. He's hurting just like you are.  He blames himself enough, you don't have to add to it.  He's barely functioning right now.  The woman he loves is in a coma.  One of his kids will not be leaving here alive, if not both."

What does she mean?  Did Asia's condition get worse?

Lord, I have been praying faithfully for a miracle.  She's a beautiful baby and I already know she's going to have a beautiful soul.  I know you have everything already planned in advance, but Lord if it's your will, please send a blessing down to cure her.  Amen.

"I can't imagine what he's going through.  For the first time in almost fifty-seven years, my mind is taking a break.  I've been trying to come up with some type of solution and there's nothing."

"Kekino, that's because there is nothing you can do.  Let's all have breakfast and we will come back.  Give your mind a real break."

Thank you Grammy, don't let him fall apart.  I'm right here, Daddy.

I hear them leave the room and my mind drifts off to what they were saying until I feel a chill run through my body.  There's only one person who has that effect over me.  Roman.

"Sweetheart, you look absolutely beautiful this morning.  Even when you are sleeping."

I don't know where it came from but I can feel heat travel through my body and it shoots straight down.  I hate that I love the way he makes my body react.