Choose or Not Choose (Dazai x Reader)

'How can you deny and not approve him?...' She wrote on her small notebook while sitting on her bed with a night gown on. The room was dark except for the candle that was lit on her little night stand.

"I feel like a little kid again..." she mumbled to herself from the childish words she wrote and placed her hand on her face in embarrassment.

Y/N sighed in exhaustion, finishing the sentence and slammed the notebook close with her two hands. She opened the night stand drawer and placed the notebook in the middle of the empty drawer.

Knock.....

1.......

Knock...

2.......

Knock....

She waited for another knock, but she knew who it was already. She stood up away from her bed, placed her slippers on her foot from the cold floor and went towards the door. She took a deep breath in and turned the doorknob. Kouyou stood in front of her while holding a few clothes. She was wearing a dark grey nightgown as her hair was untied.

"Good evening Y/N" Kouyou said to her. Y/N looked at the clothes with curiosity. Kouyou saw her reaction, softly smiling at her reaction.

"You're probably asking about this but, I took in consideration about your clothes, so here you have it." Y/N looked at clothes with shiny eye's. She held the clothes with delicacy and thanked Kouyou.

"Thank you so much!" Y/N said one more time before hugging Kouyous waist without thinking. Kouyou stiffened from the embrace as the H/C hair girl's reaction. Her eye's widen at her action, her hands trembling on what to do.

The hand of a assassin wasn't used to this embrace or affection, she didn't have anytime to think but just, softly and carefully placed her hands lower.

All she could do was smile and pat Y/N's head.

"Y-Yeah....It's ok..."

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"Y/N-Chan~" The boy whined while following behind her through the garden. She rolled her E/C eye's at him and continued to admire the garden that the Port mafia had hidden. Her hands softly touches the vines, they were leaning towards her.

"You take so long! Your so boring, why do you always come here?!" He kept whining at her. as they kept walking through the garden. She stopped at a particular flower. She grabbed her water pot and tipped it over the rose for a few seconds.

Her eye's were soften at the rose, admiring the color of the it. His eye's scanned her feature and then her clothes, as always, she wore a yukuta just like Kouyou's. Her side profile, perfect. Her skin, perfect. Her eye's, perfect, he noted down in his head.

"Dazai..... Can you tell me the definition of beauty?" She asked him. The rose leaned towards her hands, she placed her finger around the petals delicately. He watched her in amused, taken back from the question but then smirked devilishly at her.

"The definition of beauty is you" He winked at her. She sighed at his flirting skills, but Kouyou already warned her about his womanizer skills.

"You really are just a womanizer...." She turned away from him and walked to a garden house. The boy stared at her as she walked away, he really couldn't stop but keep on teasing her. She was a curious one, he couldn't help but keep annoying her.He then followed behind her and decided to take off his black coat.

"So...how do you define beauty huh?" he asked her as he entered the garden house that was field with vegetables and fruits in wooden boxes. She looked around and a certain fruit caught her eye's.

"My definition for beauty?" She questioned. She held her hand out to her favorite fruit. The fruit bloomed healthier. She then smiled softly at it and sighed.

"Beauty is in everything....." He watched her carefully, admiring what she could do. She turned to him with the same soft smile. His dark brown eye's glistened at her.

"Give it a chance, learn about it, and you'll see the beauty if has. It doesn't have to look pretty, what is has inside is what matter's the most...."

Beauty huh?

Atushi

"Hm?" I questioned him from his sudden words. We both finished a case and decided to call it a day after....Stopping Dazai from doing another one of his suicide tricks....

"So....what did you think of the event? You've been acting.... kind of off lately...." I asked him as he held the rose carefully... looking in deep thought before looking at me from a side eye. It's weird but then again, I think this is a side of him I've never seen.

No actually, scratch that. This is weird of him.

"Atushi, i got a question for you." Dazai said to me, placing the rose to the pocket of his coat. I was confused, I mean, it is Dazai. Who would not question Dazai's weird's intentions?

"Uh yeah?" I asked as we entered the ADA building and headed to the cafe shop. We both said hello to the bartender and  took a seat at our usual spot.

"If you were to find, let's say, a person from your past, what would you do?" Dazai asked me. I tilted my head at him. What DID happen at the event.....? He basically just dodged my question with his question...

"Um.... I really don't have a good bond with anyone from the past but...If I DID...I think i would make up the lost years we had from each other." I replied happily. The waitress then came over to take our orders....... Dazai placed his and I just...

Shocked that Dazai, THE WOMANIZER, did not flirt with the women THIS TIME. Normally he would hold her hand, flirt with her and try to beg her for a double suicide..... WHAT DID HAPPEN IN THE EVENT? I stared at him with widen eye's and agape mouth. WHAT HAPPEN??!!

"What's wrong?" Dazai looked at me. I stuttered for a moment and placed my order to the waitress. As soon as she left, I looked at him with confused eye's.

"What happen?! Y-You didn't flirt with her this time!" I said to him. Dazai blinked at me and formed a small smile.

"Can a man not change?"

Dazai

I responded back to him with confidence. Of course, not everyone is going to take my words seriously.

"W-Why would you say that?!"He asked me and twitched his eye at me. I shrugged my shoulders at him and looked out the window, placing my chin on my hand. Maybe.....Just maybe I can change this bad habit of mines.

"Would you take back someone who left you?" I asked him. From the corner of my eye's, I can tell he was confused. He looked at me with a weird expression.

"I...I don't think so.. I mean if they left, there was probably a good reason..." He replied back to my question. I hummed at his response.

I can't seem to get the picture of Y/N's face being covered from the event....I truly did wanted to see her eye's. But as always...

Chuuya was there...

But there is a time in the day he isn't there with her..

I'll take my chances.

Even if it kills me~