Reborn as Error

I managed to convince Dust to not spill everything about what happened to Nightmare. Only because he knew that Nightmare would want to talk to me about it and as much as I respect him, I didn't want that. His talks were fine but they always drained me mentally and emotionally. I'm not sure if that was because of his powers or because the talks opened doors that remained closed for so long. Probably both. 

Anyways we said our goodbyes to Geno, I promised another visit eventually, and we headed back to our multiverse. Fresh was relatively quick to part with us and we went to Nightmare's domain. Well Dust went to Nightmare's domain, we didn't. Gradient went off to visit Sci after asking me if he could, probably to tell him what he saw. I didn't mind since Sci could be trusted with, well anything really. He was younger than most but he was responsible and trustworthy. 

I decided to spend time just looking through the different aus. I've lacking a bit when it came to keeping an eye on things so I needed to stay on that. I'm sure Ink wasn't causing a problem but it didn't hurt to check. I didn't need something to cause an au to collapse in on itself.

Plus working helped to distract myself. Being in that daycare au was messing with my head a bit. Just the idea that Pj and the other ship children were a thing and even possibly alive, if my little stunt didn't end up killing them. 

Pj.

Paperjam.

Someone I didn't want to think about ever.

If I remember correctly he's not exactly fond of Error. And that Ink isn't exactly a stellar parent. Either I killed him or just gave him more reason to hate me since that Error dissappeared only to appear suddenly and wipe out a chunk of the multiverse only to dip right after. Only if that Pj was even alive. I didn't know if I should be guilty or not. 

Pj was my kid. Kinda. Sort of. Not really. But at the same time yes. Me personally, Gradient is my kid. I only created Gradient. But a part of me back then made Paperjam and I'm not taking it well.

I want to be a good parent for Gradient, give him the life he wanted and for him to have his own choices. A part of me felt terrible if I left Pj to the life he has. But I can't force myself to take responsibility for another living being thats not mine. Technically. It's confusing to think about. It was probably already way too late. Years of possible resentment and neglect isn't going to go away just because I do something to make up for mistakes that weren't my own.

Well, I would say mistakes since whatever Error did in his past was his choice and he had reasons. I can't really take the blame for something that was done when I wasn't even around. I don't like the idea of leaving Pj on his own when I could help. But I can't give him a new childhood, what's done is done. 

I wasn't sure what to do. I could tell Gradient wanted to ask so many questions when he found about about Pj. I was thankful that he decided to hold off on those questions for now since I have no idea how that conversation would go. 

But, that's only if Pj is even around along with the others. There's not much that can really be done at this point in time. The thought of parenting reminded me that I needed to go and visit Gaster with Gradient when I got the urge to do so. I didn't feel like visiting after I already did so soon. 

I continued my routine checking aus for many many days and dealing with glitches along with other issues that would occasionally pop up. Nothing crazy though and things have evened out to a normal level. 

One day I went to Underlust since I detected a glitch there. It turned out being something rather small, an entity glitching by closed doors in the snowy underground. An easy elimination, especially since I didn't want Underlust to be corrupted with glitches.