Liar | Yeongyu

Yeonjun couldn't speak as he stared at him. He rehearsed how this moment would go but now that it was here he didn't know what to do or say.

Beomgyu took a deep breath, he was holding a small gift bag. "I should head inside. I'm already late." He walked past him and Yeonjun felt the air rush back into his lungs. He quickly turned, stepping on his cigarette as he grabbed Beomgyu's wrist.

The young man turned to look at him. "What are you doing?" He said firmly to him. "Let go of me."

Yeonjun gasped and let go. "I'm–I'm sorry...you look amazing."

Beomgyu touched his wrist. "Thanks." He turned and walked away. Yeonjun stayed back and rubbed his head.

He didn't know what to do. Should he just leave? No, this was Taehyun's night.

He finally gained up the courage to go back inside and saw Beomgyu smiling with Taehyun and Hueningkai. He watched him, laughing and glowing in his entire and he felt nervous. He swallowed, his mouth was dry.

"Champagne sir?" He grabbed a glass and chugged it.

"Thanks."

He watched him the entire night. He watched him sit alone, he watched him dance with his friends, he watched him eat, and not once did he look in his direction. As the night went on, he had decided that it was over. Beomgyu would never want him like he still does. He stood up and went to the bathroom and threw up. He gripped the toilet and as he caught his breath he leaned against the stall door and cried.

Defeated, is how he felt. Yet he hadn't truly tried but he knew Beomgyu. At least he thought he did.

He struggled to his feet and went to wash his mouth out. He heard the bathroom door open and he looked over to see Beomgyu. He stared at him and Yeonjun looked away, he didn't want him to see him like this. He was embarrassed and full of shame.

"You're still such a crybaby." He said as he walked over and grabbed a paper towel, handing it to him. "Here."

Yeonjun looked at it and slowly took it from his hands he was shaking. He felt like throwing up again.

"Is this how you imagined us seeing each other?"

"Not at all." He replied quietly.

"You look awful right now."

"...thanks."

Beomgyu stood there next to him, as if he was waiting.

Yeonjun wiped his mouth. "How have you been?"

"As good as I possibly could be. How's Japan?"

"Still doesn't feel like home." He said. "No where feels like home...not when...you're not there."

Beomgyu sighed and shook his head. "Yeonjun, stop this. You lied to me, you used me don't act like the victim here! I trusted you and you hurt me and you ran away and moved to a different country to avoid me!" He yelled at him. "You didn't come back...and I thought—" his voice began to shake. "We sent you an invitation to Nana's funeral and you didn't even come. Do you really hate me that much?"

Yeonjun's eyes widened. "Wait what? She...she died?"

Beomgyu started to sob and he hit him over and over and over until he was too weak, his knees buckling as he leaned against his body. Gripping his shirt and Yeonjun hugged him as he sank down to the floor.

He wanted to keep it together and seem like he wasn't effected at all by him leaving but it seemed that all the pent up emotions seemed to escape all at once. Like the flood gates finally shattering.

"I didn't know Beomgyu I'm sorry. I'm so sorry I couldn't be there but I didn't get an invitation no one told me."

Beomgyu looked at him. "I wrote you everyday for a month."

"What? Beomgyu I never got anything I swear it."

He looked confused. "That doesn't make any sense."

"...how did you get my address?"

"Your father."

"That asshole." He muttered. "He had to have given you the wrong address. I've gotten things from Taehyun and my mom."

Beomgyu wiped his face. "Must've been one last 'fuck you' from him for us terminating the contract."

"You what?"

"Dad took your advice and made a pretty good contract. One he didn't read and it was terminated under my say after I found out what happened."

Yeonjun smiled a little. "Gosh you're so amazing."

Beomgyu smiled a little and it faded as he moved away from him. "It doesn't change the way I feel about you. I hate you for what you did to me."

"I know. I know and you have every right to. What I did was unforgivable and you shouldn't forgive me. You shouldn't trust me, you should hate. I hate myself too but...but Beomgyu please listen when I tell you that I have never regretted something so much in my entire life. I thought I knew who I was and what I wanted until I met you and you changed everything for me. I will never forgive myself for what I did but falling in love with you...I don't regret that. Not at all. Every second spent with you was a breath of fresh air, it truly meant everything to me. I love you Beomgyu I always will, I'll do anything to make you forgive me. Anything I swear it. I just...I need you back Beomgyu please take me back." He begged.

He hugged him tightly. "Please, please take me back." He cried gently. "I need you, I need you please. I don't want to keep going through life without you I will do whatever you want. I will never tell you a lie ever again I swear. I'll...I'll sell everything I own I will reduce myself to nothing if it means I will have everything. If it means I'll have you."

Beomgyu watched and listened to him cry like a baby. As he begged for him like his life depended on it and it hurt. It hurt how much he tugged on his heart. How much he still loved him. He slowly reached up and wiped his tears away. Yeonjun looked at him with those burning, wet red eyes.

And he didn't know what came over him but leaned forward and kissed him. It stopped as soon as it started, his eyes widened at his own actions and he moved away.

"I–I...I'm sorry." He quickly went to leave and Yeonjun hand slammed against the bathroom door keeping it closed. He turned him around and grabbed his chin kissing him again. Beomgyu seemed to melt as he put his arms around him, Yeonjun held his waist in one hand and with the other he locked the bathroom door. He pressed him against the wall and whimpered against his lips.

"Beomgyu." He moaned his name against his neck. "Tell me to stop."

"Stop!" Their heads whipped over in the direction of the bathroom stall. "You two aren't the only ones in here get out!"

"S-Sorry." Yeonjun stammered out as they quickly left the bathroom.

Beomgyu fixed himself and so did Yeonjun as they walked back to the party. He couldn't help but snicker a little, Yeonjun looked at him and they both burst into a fit of laughs.

"I guess we got a little carried away." And Yeonjun agreed. "...let's talk after the party."

"Okay."

When they returned no one said anything but Taehyun and Hueningkai noticed them sitting at the same table, even if they weren't talking they both saw a sort of light that came back in their eyes. They looked at each other and smiled.

"This is a great night." Taehyun said to him.

"I'm glad you're enjoying it because the after party will be even better." He whispered to him before kissing his cheek.

Taehyun's face turned red. "I can cut this night short and end it here I've had my fun." He said earning a laugh from his boyfriend.

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