Brian collapsed on top of me, breathing heavily.
I couldn't keep the goofy grin off my face as I combed my fingers through his sweat soaked hair.
I felt Brian press soft kisses to my chest and I smiled again.
"It gets better every time." Brian said, breathing normally again.
"Mmhm." I said.
Brian looked up at me and rested his chin on my chest.
"How has a guy not snatched you up yet?" He asked.
I laughed.
"It's kind of hard to get a guy to stick around when there's five huge, scary barriers, also known as A7X, standing in the way, ready to kill." I said with a laugh.
"It's just cause we love you." He said.
My heart started pounding at his words.
"I love you too." I blurted out.
Brian smiled and kissed my chest before rolling off of me.
I watched him get dressed and tried to hold in the tears.
He turned toward me and smiled making me force one as well.
He came forward and gave me a kiss I never wanted to pull away from.
Brian pulled away though, and smiled, then walked out.
No goodbyes, he just left.
Like always.
The second I heard the door close the tears came.
I laid down in bed, crying, wondering how I let things get this far.
How did I go from being the best friend, to the one you come to when you want to fuck?
What would my brother think?
Where the hell did my self-respect go?
I know exactly where it went.
It flew out the window the first time me and Brian slept together.
That was a year and a half ago.
I laid in bed, sobbing.
I'd never cried alot before.
Now I did this every night Brian came over, which was almost every day.
I rolled over and grabbed my cell, dialing the only person who would understand.
"Did he leave already?" Lia asked softly.
Lia was the only one who knew about me and Brian.
I started crying even harder.
I heard Lia sigh deeply.
"Why do you let him do this to you, Evey?" She asked.
"I don't know." I cried.
But I did know why.
I did it, cause I'd rather be the doormat in Brian's life then not be in it at all.
Just the thought made me sob more.
