Brian's POV
I laid on my back staring up at the ceiling.
I'd finally done it.
I'd fucked up everything in my life.
Everything that was good in it.
My best friends and band mates hate me.
I betrayed my best friend and lost him.
And I lost the woman I love.
The one who really cared about me.
Who let me treat her like shit, use her when I wanted and left without goodbyes.
The one who dealt with all the shit and didn't once complain
Because she loved me.
And I was too stupid to see it.
I'd lost it all.
There is a big gaping whole in my chest that wont stop aching.
And it probably never will.
I just wish the ground would open up and swallow me whole.
Keep me from feeling all of this pain and heart ache.
And as much as I wanted to fall into a pool of nothingness, I know I deserve this.
And I deserve to feel every ounce of pain I've inflicted on my loves ones.
The stupid tears started to burn my eyes again and I wiped them away.
There was rapid knocking on my front door and I turned my head in confusion.
"Who the hell is that?" I asked.
I got up slowly and looked at myself in the mirror.
I looked disgusting to say the least.
My eyes were red and puffy, my cheeks looked red and splotchy.
My hair was a mess and absolutely everywhere.
I walked slowly to my door and opened it.
My eyes widened in shock, because standing on my doorstep was Eve.
I couldn't pick my mouth up off the floor.
Eve is here.
At my house!
"Are you going to invite me in?" She asked sarcastically.
I still couldn't speak, so I nodded and moved out of the way.
She walked in and looked around.
I closed the door and followed her.
She went into the living room and sat on the couch, still looking around.
"Can you believe we screwed around for almost two years and I've never once been to your house." Eva said with an angry smirk on her face.
I looked down, feeling guilty, because she was absolutely right.
I never once let her come to my house.
Not once.
"Evey--" I tried.
"Has Jimmy called you?" Eve asked, not letting me finish.
My eyes scrunched up.
"Jimmy hates me. There's no way in hell he's gonna be ringing me up anytime soon. And I understand. I would feel the same." I said honestly.
"I talked to him. He's upset about what happened and he wants to do right by me. But he also doesn't want to lose you as a friend. I explained to him that he doesn't need to worry about me. I'm fine and he needs to do what's right for him. So, he should be calling you if not today, then definitely tomorrow." Eve said.
I looked at her in amazement.
She had stuck up for me, even after everything.
"Why? Why did you defend me?" I asked her, my eyes still wide.
"Because my brother doesn't deserve to lose his best friend. Its not fair to him. Or you." She added.
My eyes narrowed as I looked at her.
"Why do you care how I feel?" I asked her.
She got quiet and looked down at her hands.
It was a few more minutes that past when she finally looked up at me.
"Because even after all of the shit you put me through. All of the tears I cried, the nights I spent alone, lying to everyone I care about and feeling bad about myself. I still care how you feel." Eva said quietly.
"Why?" I said quietly.
"Because I love you." She whispered.
I didn't know what to say.
My heart was beating quickly and it felt like my blood was rushing faster through my body.
My hands were getting clammy and I started to ring my hands.
"You, you love me?" I whispered.
I looked up at Eva, praying that this wasn't some sort of sick joke.
"I love you Brian. I don't know how it happened. This was just supposed to be a once in a while thing between us. But it turned into so much more." Eva explained.
"That's exactly how I feel. I don't think there's enough I'm sorrys in the universe to apologize for all that I've put you through. I can only keep apologizing until you believe me, and feel it with every fiber in your body. I love you Eva, and I am so, so sorry." I told her.
I could are Eva's eyes filling with tears and it broke my heart.
I opened my arms slowly, seeing if she would come to me.
I couldn't help but smile as she got up and came to me, sitting in my lap.
The feeling of being complete and having the woman I want most here in my arms, was absolutely surreal.
Eva wrapped her arms around my neck and held me close.
I could feel her soft breath against my neck and it sent tingles down my spine.
"I love you." I whispered in her ear.
She paused for a moment and squeezed me tighter.
"I love you too." She murmured.
I sat there with her in my arms for what seemed like forever, and I was glad to sit here with her endlessly.
"I don't want to ruin the moment because I'm so glad that you're here with me. But what happened to Luke?" I asked her.
She leaned back and looked at me, a small smile lighting up her face.
"He told me that he knew I never stopped loving you. He wants me to be happy, and he knows that's with you. And I agree." She told me.
I grinned widely and pulled her close, her lips coming down on mine.
Absolute bliss.
