how am i? (1)

So today was pretty bad. I still feel really sick and I don't want to go anywhere, but at the same time, I'm tired of not going anywhere the whole week. It's boring and I feel unproductive.

Bark

So, my mom found this app that monitors texts and social media and stuff and looks for signs of suicidal thoughts or signs of a potential school shooter or cyberbullying or even nudes and I'm pissed about it. I know my parents don't trust me at all, but to go to this extent just feels offensive and almost like an invasion of privacy. I'm honestly really angry about it because it means I can't talk to my friends about my depression whenever I'm in a really bad place and god, that's my biggest help and it just got ripped away from me. I feel like I need to tell them everything just so I can continue to talk to my friends about it, but I'm not ready. I'm scared and I don't think I could do it. Now I'm stuck without being able to communicate with them. I just wish my parents would just trust me. I mean god, the reason I don't have Snapchat yet is literally because of the things my dad hears about stupid people getting there nudes leaked from Snapchat and he doesn't trust me. Dad, I'm not an idiot. I'm not gonna take a freaking nude and send it to someone. God. I'm literally crying about it, because I thought I was in a good place with my parents where they trusted me, but no. They don't. Not at all. I even didn't tell my mom about the walk because I didn't want to talk to her. I wish my parents actually trusted me with my phone. I mean, they already don't let me download anything without getting it approved through this overly complicated software where it sends a request to my dad. I thought they trusted me.

Random Points

My stomach hurts really bad and it has for the past week or so, plus a constant migraine. I'm dying.

Let's be real. What lily said to Mj was not cool.

Detroit: become human is a really cool game and I love Kara's storyline.

Daily Overview

4/10

Today sucked. I was gonna give it a 5 but it didn't deserve it.

Bye <3