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Newt
God she's gorgeous. Every time I saw her my heart would flutter a little, but she wouldn't want me like that. And over these few days whilst I had been on bed rest, she came in every day for most of the day and I couldn't be more grateful of her. I was just so glad to be getting out of this bloody medjack hut that was now close to finished.
"Evening" That sweet voice said as she entered the room rubbing her tired eyes.
"Please let me out of here" I said slowly swinging my legs over the edge of the wooden bed.
She quickly walked over and I put my arm across her shoulders, putting a lot of my weight on her and not my leg.
"It's ok" she said as I managed to take a little limp forward. I took a deep breath trying to contain the tears. After all, I did this to myself.
"Do you want to go and see everyone? We've managed to get a bonfire going in your honour" She smiled and I nodded. It would be nice being around everyone after so long on my own.

I hobbled slowly as she supported me. It hurt to even put a tiny amount of pressure on the leg, even with the makeshift brace and the support of Faith.
"You'll be ok Newt. I'm going to help you" she said as we made it to the bonfire.
"Thank you" I smiled as she announced my presence and I was greeted with cheers and smiling faces.
As soon as the crowd of happy boys gathered round me, the girl I wanted disappeared. But I tried to hide it and just get on with the boys. Unfortunately I couldn't hide it from everyone.

I decided to hobble on my own to a log just next to the homestead. But being on my own didn't last long.
"You fancy her don't you?" Minho said as he sat down. I quickly looked in the crowd and saw Faith laughing and observing the play fighting going on.
"What are you talking about?"
"Faith. You fancy her don't you?" He asked again.
"I dunno man it's complicated. We've been together here the longest and she's the leader I don't want to put the pressure of being in a relationship ontop of everything else she deals with" I said and he rolled his dark eyes at me.
" your her second in command. And no matter how much I don't like having to obey her sometimes, she's a really nice girl. And...she's the only girl. And she's interested in you." He laughed and I smiled.
"Nah. She wouldn't see me like that. Not after two years of being just strictly friends" I explained.
"Both of you fancy each other I can just tell. Go over to her" he pushed and I motioned down to my mangled leg.
Quickly Minho rose and helped me onto my feet as we saw her leave the bonfire and sit near a tall tree on her own.
"This is ridiculous" I scoffed but still Minho led me to her.

"Oh hey" she smiled and I think we both sensed a hint of sadness in her tone.
Minho roughly helped me down to sit beside her and walked off without a word.
"How are you getting on?"
"Well it bloody hurts and I hate not being able to do anything on my own but, I'm here" I shrugged and she nodded. "Ok tell me what's wrong"
"I just think about it a lot" she said and I know she was talking about what I did. "And I just think of all the ways I could of prevented it. I could of said you're not allowed to run that day, I could of said I needed help I could of.." She trailed off and I knew tears were on their way.
I opened an arm for her and she moved closer into my side.
"Please don't blame yourself. You might be the leader but you're not responsible for anyone's actions. I chose to do what I did. Not you" I reassured her as she let out silent tears onto my shoulder.
"I was so close to loosing you. I'm supposed to protect everyone and I didn't do that with you. People have died in here Newt it's a dangerous place which is why I put in rules. I've had to build graves for teenagers who were too young to die. I'm never going to be putting a grave in here for you. Promise me that" she warned and I nodded quickly.
The realisation of what I did hit me hard with her words. This didn't only affect me but also her as well. I didn't expect it to affect her this much. I thought I wasn't that important to her.
Obviously I was too oblivious to realise what the repercussions of my actions would be.
"I'm sorry" I whispered.

I had made her feel like she was a bad leader and also a bad friend. And she wasn't a bad leader or a bad friend. She was the best I could of ever asked for.
"We should probably get back to the party" she yawned and I smiled.
"I think I'm more interested in heading off to bed."
"You read my mind" she pushed herself up and reached her small dainty hand out to me.
"Night gladers!" She yelled as we walked back to our beds. She got many responses and I saw how much everyone liked her. Even Gally, and he liked no one.

"Are you going to be ok?" Faith asked as I sat on my bed. She gestured to my clothes and I nodded.
"Could you actually just help me slip into a different tshirt. The one I tend to sleep in is on the stool and take my shoes off" I asked and she nodded collecting the white shirt in hand.
"Ok" she breathed before bending onto her bruised knees and slipping off both of my shoes.
She placed the tshirt beside me as I pulled the other over my head. I saw her sneak a glance at my naked torso and smiled to myself. I didn't let her know that I had seen her look.
Slowly I put on the new tshirt and pulled my way into my bed.
"I'm worried you're not going to be ok" she said furrowing her brow, causing my heart to flutter in my chest.
"You're right next door only a wooden wall away. I'll shout if I need you ok?" I smiled and she nodded sitting down beside me. "Faith I'm fine"
"No I know" she nodded and we fell into a rather awkward silence. I looked over at her and admired her facial features. Each one I found beautiful. I wish she could see how beautiful she was. I doubted whether she's actually ever seen herself at all. I know the rest of us haven't. I could be ugly.
"You're not ugly Newt" Faith laughed and I shook my head. "Bad habit of talking your thoughts" I blushed wildly but it caused her to laugh and that was the best sound for me to hear.
"You're not ugly either. In fact you're really quite beautiful" I spilled and her laughter seized up immediately.

At the same time we both looked up at each other and I knew that once that eye contact had been made I couldn't stop myself from following my heart and my feelings.
Confidently i leaned my upper body towards her and leaned my lips to hers. But our lips didn't meet. Instead, my lips met her soft cheek. But still I placed a small kiss there and reclined back to my previous position.
Faith, with reddened cheeks, stood up and walked towards the door that linked our two rooms.
"Why didn't you kiss me?" I had to ask her. I couldn't hold it in.
"I-I can't have relationships in here Newt. It's too risky"
"How the shuck is it risky? It could actually bring a bit of happiness in here" i argued against her.
"There's plenty of happiness in here"
"Then add more! Just give it a go! What are you afraid of?" I said breathlessly at my new found confidence of making her mine.
"Losing you! Your already my best friend but if you were my boyfriend as well and you went and did something stupid again, it would hurt twice as bad" she said.
"I'm not going to do anything stupid"
"Prove it. Then we'll see" she finished and I knew the relationship talk was over.

The fact I had seen her in a romantic way for a while and she hadn't annoyed me to my wits end but it also made me want to try so much harder to actually make her mine.
It was a confident move for me. But it was step one. Showing her I can be more confident and not just a shy boy in the background.
"Something big will happen soon. I know it" she said nodding at me and I shrugged feeling more embarrassed than anything.
"Goodnight Newt" she whispered and closed the door before I had the chance to say goodnight back to her.
I couldn't tell if the move I had made was stupid or just following my heart. I could of just shucked up everything. I tried to forget about the failed kiss and relationship attempt and thought about what big thing could happen.
What I didn't know was that we would have to wait another year before something, or someone significant came into the glade.