TMNT x Depressed reader (Wrote in: 2018) (?)

2 days before (Y/N)'s death... found by Senpai...

I've been through pain nobody has experienced before,
You left me here when I was just four,
The doctors have always scared me but you always are seen to leave the door,
Wide open for the monsters who creep as they approach the door,
I heard a creak... Are they coming for me?
I have asked this question two times before,
Why haven't you answered that's all I ask,
I'm in pain right now I don't feel like I can finish the task,
Promises are something that I can't seem to always keep,
It's hard for me already but you try and make it harder,
The mountain is where I like to weep,
The place where I feel like I can hide everything and lock myself away,
It makes me feel free,
Oh Genji why aren't you here with me?
You promised me you'd stay by my side before you die,
But you didn't want me there, do you know what you've caused me?!
It hurts like hell right now!
I'm tearing apart!
The life I had was just a part
Of the big puzzle that can't be dealt with!
Nobody dares to touch it!
It's too big and hard for anyone to understand,
And when I open up it feels like they're dragging me down,
This is why I always keep my guard up,
The wall I've built is something that can't be broken down,
But when it comes to you it feels like it's falling down,
Around and around I go,
Dizziness always feels like it's apart of me,
I feel every now and then but when people ask
"Are you alright?"
I always keep up the same lie,
"Yes, I'm fine"
It harder and harder, this white lie,
The lie that can be seen through,
It's easy to tell but the thing is,
Nobody cares enough to help me,
I'm dying inside,
I don't think I can be that healthy,
When I don't eat that much or when I don't have enough money,
I cared for myself but one thing is you left me!
I trusted you for years now,
I thought you said you'd stay with me,
So where are you now?!
Some people say...
Some people laugh...
Some people lie...
Some others ask...
They mock and hurt me,
What have I ever done to deserve this...
I fade day and day,
Second by second,
It hurts,
Every day I feel another piece of me missing,
I guess this is the end,
You won't see me for the rest of your life after this,
Please tell everyone else how you feel about this,
Tell them what's on your mind,
I'm sorry I couldn't do the same but I'll always help you,
I'll always be there even when you weren't,
It wasn't your fault,
I've always wanted to die,
But not like this,
I'm fighting strong...
But it's harder then it already is,
So I'll just give up,
Let it take me away,
But just know that I love you and that I'm here to stay,
It hurts, It hurts,
But I already stopped fighting it,
It's now taking over,
And I can't be dealt with...

Love,

(Y/N)

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This wasn't as good as the other one but I'm trying my best to think of more! Please don't judge I tried my best in my spare time since Christmas break is so near! I CAN'T WAIIITTT!!!