If It Happens (Wenclair)

Enid's POV

The time passed by more slowly than it ever had in that hospital. Beeping from other rooms, nurses murmuring, this disgusting food, and waiting for Wednesday to come back.

My parents FaceTimed me and said they would book a flight to come over and I told them it would cause me more stress which could cause my brain to combust. Not exactly true but I could not handle my mother at this time.

My body was in an immense amount of pain but I told the doctor's I was feeling better so hopefully I could get out of here sooner and back in the arms of my tiny but fierce girl.

She walked in out of nowhere, alone and quiet. "Hey Enid" she said and bent over to give me a kiss. "Why so glum?" I asked her.

"Well, I got expelled for attacking Xavier and Yoko and not going to Aster first. She wouldn't let me even have a chance to legitimately defend myself."

My heart broke into a thousand unfixable pieces. "But what about.." I couldn't even finish the sentence. "I don't know" she answered.

"You promised me a dance" I said tears welling up in my eyes. Obviously it wasn't just the dance I was upset about but it was the first thing that came to my head that wasn't fully saying what about us?

"Enid this doesn't have to be the end but it's going to be complicated. I don't want to go back to my family but I don't have the money to rent an apartment in a nearby town. I'm thinking that maybe I could stay in the woods for a while until I figure things out."

I started having flashbacks to what happened to me and I started to panic. "No no no you can't go to the woods I can ask my parents to get you a hotel room or something for a while just promise me you won't go to the woods."

She sighed and grumbled her promise to me obviously unsure of what to do. "I can stay with you in the hotel" I told her. "You can't you have to stay here and get better."

I grabbed her hand and very seriously said "I can't get better without you Weds." she looked up at me then looked around at the hospital equipment and my bandages. "Ok. You can come with me."

I called my parents again and told them the situation but I left out the part where I'd be staying with her. They reluctantly said yes and I think the only reason they agreed was to not stress me out more but regardless Wednesday had a place to go for a while.

Wednesday's POV

I packed up my things that night and Thing helped me grab some of Enid's belongings that she needed for a bit. I had to leave before the morning came so that Aster wouldn't be waiting for me to go to the train station I wouldn't be taking.

Eugene and Ajax said their goodbyes but it wasn't all too sad as they knew I'd still be 15 minutes away and they could visit whenever they wanted. It still sucked though. But at least Bianca got to steal Ajax's car again.

I met Enid outside of the hospital with our stuff and was surprised she could actually discharge herself since she wasn't technically dying.

Bianca drove us to the hotel and asked "are you guys going to be ok? Do you need anything? You do know you can always call if you need anything right? Are you hungry?"

"We're fine but thank you for driving us, and for ya know. Saving my life. I owe you big time" Enid said while slowly and carefully getting out of the car.

We got our room keys and opened the door to a very mediocre room but she was very excited. "We can pretend we have our own apartment! Look there's even a microwave! And our own bathroom!" I laughed at her innocence but went along with it.

"Oh we have worked long and hard to afford a place of our own but look at us now! Our very own overpriced place to live. How ever shall we celebrate?" I dramatically wandered the room while she laid in bed taking some ibuprofen.

"It can't really be our own place until we consummate it." I gave her a questioning look. "Oh yeah? What happened to you being in an immense amount of pain where you can't even stand up straight?"

"If I don't move I'll be alright, but if you aren't ready to have the most boring sex of your life while I'm literally forced to be a pillow princess then that is up to you" she joked.

I snuck my way onto the bed and put my head on her shoulder. "There's something I need to tell you and it's not going to be easy for me to say. It's not awful but you know I have a hard time talking about stuff. I actually have it written down."

She nervously gave me an "...ok.." I put my arm around her waist and took a deep breath in while pulling the note out from my pocket which I found crumpled up and handed it to her.

I feel like I can't breathe. The ground feels like it's swaying and I am afraid that I might die from this panic but I also want to die from how awful this feels. Enid.. Enid had sex with me last night. It hurts now. I don't know why. I feel angry and scared and small but last night I didn't. It wasn't until Bianca said she could hear us, but us meant me. I was the one being touched and I was the one making those disgusting sounds. I feel sick to my stomach thinking about it. I can't tell Enid, it'll break her heart and I'm trying so hard not to run away.

She finished reading it and she purses her lips not looking at me. "You could've stopped me if you didn't want to do it." She quietly said.

"I did want it and I did enjoy it while it was happening but I talked to my therapist the next day and we sorted some things out in my head. I don't like being vulnerable and I've always been fine with people thinking I'm weird and scary. That's only because I had no vulnerability, there was nothing that I opened up about and nowhere close to even letting someone see me or be with me in that way. And to have more than just you, experience that intimacy even if they only heard it, made me feel afraid. Like I was less of a person because I let my guard down."

That's when she looked at me finally and tried reading my face for any lies. "I'm sorry you had a hard time telling me, and yes that stung to read but the explanation took away the sharpness. I know who you are Wednesday and I'm sorry I didn't take into consideration that it made you feel exposed. I can totally understand that."

I let out a breath I didn't even know I had been holding in and played with her fingers. "You promise that you didn't have a bad time though?" She asked.

"It was incredible and I wouldn't ever take that experience away. I handled it badly but god I would give anything to feel that sort of connection with you again."

She leaned back and smiled, giving me a pat on the head. "Good because I want that too. Whenever you're ready it can happen. And by the way you didn't make disgusting noises, they're what made me want more with you and I found it incredibly attractive."

I blushed and didn't know what to say other than "thank you."

We watched a movie on the TV and she fell asleep with our hands interlocked. I should've known Enid would be understanding and I was pretty proud of myself for finally telling her, and having her safe with me.