Undying Devotion | Sebastian Sallow

Y/N's Perspective

Fall came to a quick end and the colored leaves on the ground were soon replaced with snow. The season was not the only thing that changed, Sebastian changed. Our relationship was never the same again after that trip to Feldcroft.

We did not have the same talks we used to have. Now everything was consumed by my ancient magic abilities and Anne. At first I did not have a problem with it. I want to help Anne, but after a few weeks I could not handle it anymore.

He stopped flirting with me, he stopped reading to me, he stopped loving me. All he cared about was my powers. I was merely a means to an end.

He became mad in his search for answers to save his sister. I knew that things would never be the same between us. I knew he was a new man after our trip to the Scriptorium. The only way we could get out was to cast the Cruciatius Curse on another person. Ominis refused to do it and after I was told about how his family uses the curse for sport, I understood why.

That just left Sebastian and I. I could not hurt him like that. You have to mean it when you cast the curse and I know I could never intend harm on the man I love. I told him to cast it on me not expecting it to work, but it did. I have never felt such agonizing pain in my life. Ominis ran to my side to help me and check on me, but Sebastian just stood there and watched. How could he seem so indifferent to my pain? How could he vow to protect me then inflict such pain on me?

Everything I did was for him. Despite the fact that it hurt me that he seemed to no longer care about me, I still stuck by his side hoping I could find a cure for Anne. The ventures no longer ended with a gentle kiss like they did before, they ended with Sebastian frustrated and looking for the next thing to save his sister.

We used to never fight, but after Feldcroft we would fight nearly every day. He called me selfish for not wanting to use my ancient magic to remove Anne's pain, but he did not understand the consequences of that action. He called me ignorant for seeking help in a goblin, Lodgok. Everything was a fight, and it took a toll on me watching the man I loved turn on me.

My friendships with Poppy, Natty, Ominis, and Imelda grew stronger and they started to watch my soul slowly wither away every time I was with Sebastian. Ominis was the first to say something after our escape from the Scriptorium.

"Y/n, this is getting dangerous and I am worried about you" he said sweetly, taking my hand in his.

"I am fine Ominis! If this is what I have to do to save Anne then I will do it."

"You are not going to save Anne if you are dead" he sighed. He sat me down on the couch in the common room and spoke softly. "I may be blind, but I know what is going on here. You are in love with Sebastian and you are trying to do anything he needs to get him back to how he was before you two went to Feldcroft, but you may need to come to terms with the fact that it may never be the same again."

Tears started streaming down my cheeks, "I want him to be happy. I need him to love me."

"You are putting yourself through hell for a man who may not be capable of feeling love. When will you see that he is using you."

I refused to acknowledge Ominis's words at that time. I could not accept the fact that I may have been manipulated. I was determined to go back to the way things were.