Undying Devotion | Sebastian Sallow

Y/N's Perspective

It has been a few days since Sebastian walked away from our kiss. I don't know where it went wrong. Things were going well between us that day, so why wouldn't he spend the night with me?

He seemed like he enjoyed kissing me, and I could feel how aroused he was, but he just stopped. He told me he couldn't and walked away.

I think I have ruined things between us. The damage of my words has already taken root in his heart and he cannot ever look past what I said to him. He cannot be with me because he does not want to be.

That has been a hard thing to come to terms with. It sickens me to think that I have lost Sebastian Sallow forever. Sure he would stick around to protect me, to fulfill some dumb promise he made, but I will never have him as mine again.

He didn't say much to me yesterday and he did not look at me much either. He sat with me in Advanced Potions like he did last Monday, but it felt like he was straining himself just to be near me. Whenever he did speak to me his voice was always sheepish and his eyes never fully came to mine. It hurt me deeply.

Even though I wanted to hide in my room today, Imelda was not going to let me just lay here all day.

"Come on Y/n! You love Defense Against the Dark Arts! You cannot just hide in here all semester. Plus Hecat saw you in the Great Hall, so she knows you are feeling fine. You have to come to class."

I roll my eyes at her and throw the pillow over my face. I let out a loud groan and try to shoo her away with my hand.

I cannot go to class knowing Sebastian will be there too. I cannot handle another day of him looking through me and ignoring my existence. I might as well just drop out because this is how I will act for the rest of the year.

I hear Imelda stomp over to the side of my bed. She rips the pillow off of me and throws it on the ground.

"Hey" I yell sitting up. "Now you got it all dirty!"

"Good! Maybe then you can stop hiding and feeling bad for yourself. This is not the Y/n I know."

I scoff, "Yeah well she's gone now. Get used to this."

"No! I refuse to except that. You have dealt with too much to let a boy be the thing that defeats you! That is insane Y/n. You are going to get up, march into class like you are on top of the world, and you are going to show Sebastian Sallow that you do not need him."

I appreciate what Imelda is trying to do, but it will never work. I do need Sebastian. He has defeated me completely. All I want is to be with him. I want to feel him, taste him, see his smile, and if I cannot have that then what is the point? There was not happiness for me. I was doomed for a life of loneliness.

I lay back down and once again try to shoo Imelda away from me. She lets out a frustrated sigh and I smile thinking I have won this battle.

I hear her walk away and I feel like I can finally be left alone in peace. I close my eyes and start to relax my body.

"She is in her bed. Help me out here" I hear as the door swings open.

Before I can completely register what is going on, I feel two long slender but muscular arms wrap around me lifting me from my bed. I look to see Ominis holding me tightly against him. I struggle and hit his chest, fighting for him to let me go.