UNEXPECTEDLY (Privileged series #1)

Nanonood sa sala si Khiana ngayon kasama ni Mang Lito, she was super bubbly. But just as Kian said earlier, Khiana was being careful of her actions.

"Anong plano mo kay Khiana?" Tanong nya ng hindi nakatingin sa akin. It was a hard question. He wants me to decide.

I pause before answering.

"I'll bring her back." Sagot ko, inaabot ko naman sakanya ang mga natapos ko nang hugasan. Wala akong magagawa kung hindi yon, I don't have the right to keep Khiana under me. I'm not her guardian, much less related.

"What if hindi sya tanggapin?" He throw another question at me while wiping the plates.

Natigilan ako sa tanong nya. He was right, mas mataas ang possibility na hindi sya tanggapin kesa sa possibility na tatanggapin sya ulit base on what Khiana told us earlier, if what she said was true then I don't want her to be there. She was having a hard time under that roof. But I don't have any power to take her yet.

It would look like I kidnap her or something kapag hindi ko sya binalik. Napansin siguro ni Kian na natahimik ako kaya tumingin sya saakin.

"I know you know that there is a big possibility that they won't accept her given on what Khiana told us." Hindi ko parin sya tinitignan.

Alam ko naman yon pero kasi may part sa akin na baka hindi totoo yung sinabi ni Khiana. Part of me still has this unnecessary hope. I heard him sigh.

"Athena." Malumanay na tawag nya sya pangalan ko.

That's the first time I heard him say my name in tone of voice.

"What do you want to do?" My gaze snapped at him slowly.

"I'll just try to bring her back." Sagot ko kaya tumango nalang sya habang pinupunasan yung mga platong tapos ko nang hugasan.

"Ano sa tingin mo yung dapat kong gawin?" Humina yung boses ko nang maitanong ko yon. Napatingin sya sa akin kaya itinuon ko ulit yung atensyon ko sa paghuhugas.

"Pano kung hindi nga sya tanggapin?" Patuloy parin ako sa paghuhugas. "I'm just a teenager turning 20, let's say that I will adopt her, yes I have my personal money to tend to her needs pero hindi ako sigurado kung maalagaan ko sya ng tama. Pero wala pa ko sa tanong edad to do that."

Kung ma adopt ko nga sya, walang kasiguraduhan na magiging masaya sya sa puder ko. What if I became like my Dad? What if I became too controlling? What if Khiana regret being with me? What if I realize I'm a bad parent just like the other parents I hate? What if I became like them? What if she will also have a hard time being with me?

Hindi biro ng pagpapalaki sa isang bata, there's so many things that needs to be reconsider, like does Khiana want me to be her guardian?

I'm not that confident kasi ako mismo hindi lumaki sa masayang pamilya. Honestly I don't know what to do.

"No one knows how to be a good parent Athena, pag hindi nila tinanggap then ilagay mo sya sa maayos na bahay ampunan. Then kunin mo sya pag okay na... Honestly, I don't know." Sagot nya. "Kahit ako hindi ko alam yung gagawin, but let's just do what we think is best for her." I nodded at what he said.

"Can I ask you something though?" Hindi nya hinintay yung sagot ko at patuloy na nagsalita. "Why are you acting na parang responsibilidad mo si Khiana?"

Kakatapos ko lang hugasan yung huling pinggan ng itanong nya yon. It made me halt. Bakit nga ba? Why did I felt a sense of responsibility to her? Isa lang ang pumasok sa isip ko.

She's a child.

It has something to do on what happen one month ago. When I went to Kyle's apartment. The the thing he made me drink and lose something important.