Nakatulala akong nakatingin sa kisame habang nakahiga. Pumunta ako sa kwarto ni Dia kanina pero narinig kong may kausap syasa phone kaya hindi ko na ginulo. Kausap nya yung love of her life nya. Mukhang umuusad na sila.
Nang makapasok ako sa kwarto ay wala ng ibang nasa isip ko kung hindi si Kian. Kian's words filled my head. His confession, it's seems like I was on cloud nine but at the same time I was afraid.
"Mahal kita, Athena. More than words could ever describe."
When I remember it again my face heat up. Gumulong gulong ako sa kama dahil sa kilig na nararamdaman. Para na ko tangang nakangiti habang iniisip yon. Pero agad din yung nawala.
Gulong gulo na ko sa nararamdaman ko! I want to try and let him. But at the same time... pinangungunahan ako nang takot. Takot sa pwedeng mangyari kung sakaling hayaan ko sya. Takot sa kung anong pwedeng gawin ni Dad. At takot na baka masaktan ko sya. Kanina pa yon paulit ulit sa utak ko. It was like a broken record that was playing over and over again.
Hindi nya ko hinayaang magsalita pagkatapos nyang mag-confess. Wala muna daw akong dapat sabihin. Ang sabi nya, hayaan ko daw muna syang gawin yung part nya. Hindi ko sya maintindihan, but he only told me to not overthink.
And not just that! How can I face him tomorrow now that I know that the two of us like each other? He still doesn't know that I like him though. But still! Will be awkward? Will something change? Gusto ko sya pero... I know loving him back had consequences. Kaya hindi alam ang dapat kong gawin.
Napabuntunghininga nalang ako sa mga pumapasok sa isip ko. Dumako ang tingin ko sa study table kung saan nakalagay ang iilang papeles. Oh right I have work tomorrow.
"Cr*p." Napaupo ako ng may maalala. I have two meetings I need to attend tomorrow. At yung unang meeting ay medyo maaga. Kailangan ko ng matulog ng maaga, ang aga pa man din ng meeting bukas. Inayos ko na yung higa ko at pumikit.
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The hell???? Ilang oras na akong nakapikit hindi pa din ako makatulog.
Second attempt!
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Napamulat ako ng mata ang maalala nanaman yung nangyari kanina. Kasalanan mo toh Kian!!! Look at what happen to me! Hindi ako makatulog. Sya nalang ang nasa isip ko.
I look at the wall clock and it's already past 2! Think of something else! My plushies! My plushies always help me to fall asleep.
Agad kong kinuha yung malaking teddy bear malapit sa higaan ko. Niyakap ko yon at pumikit. But then I remember that this teddy bear is the one Kian and I got when we play at the arcade. Because of that, I toss it aside. Pero agad akong bumangon at nilagay yon kung saan sya nakalagay, I even said sorry for tossing him. Naiinis akong bumalik sa higaan.
Ano ba yan??!! My head is full of Kian!
Kasalanan toh ni Kian! Pano ako makakatulog neto? Should I start counting sheep? Effective daw yon sabi ni Dia.
One sheep, two sheep, three sheep, four sheep, five sheep, six sheep, seven sheep, eight sheep, nine sheep, ten sheep, eleven sheep, twelve sheep, thirteen sheep, fourteen sheep, fifteen sheep, sixteen sheep, seventeen sheep, eighteen sheep, nineteen sheep, twen-
*Yawn*
Oh it's working, I should continue.
Twenty sheep, twenty one sheep, twenty two sheep, twenty three sheep, twenty four sheep...
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