Just Trust Me || n.h. (EDITING IN PROGRESS)

Hope everyone is having a good summer! Mine has been pretty good, definitely busy but anyway enjoy!

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Tatum's P.O.V.

I never thought today would be happening. The moment everything was going well and my life was everything I had hoped for, something like this happens and flips it on its head.

In my lace black dress, I stare at myself in the mirror.

I look defeated and broken.

I haven't slept really since I lost my best friend.

Niall being with me through this has helped but not enough for the nightmares to not appear in my sleep. I wake up screaming and crying thinking it wasn't real before realizing it was and is, causing this pain to be even more unbearable.

I can't help but think this is all my fault. But I could also blame Harry. And a part of me is so mad at Liam for ever getting involved in the first place. I never wanted anything to happen to those who are close to me but that wish didn't come true.

I want this nightmare to end... But it won't... And never will...

Wiping my face to rid the tears on my cheeks, I take a deep breath, close my eyes, and prepare myself for my final goodbye. I have to be strong. Not for me, but for Liam. He wouldn't want me to dwell on this and I promised him that I wouldn't.

Arms wrap around my waist providing the comfort I need in this hard time. But he also needs me to be there for him as much I need him to be there for me. I'm not the only one who lost a friend that day. I turn around and wrap my arms around him, bury my face in his neck, and take all of him in.

"How are you feeling today?" I lift my head and look at him. His eyes are red and puffy.

"Kind of okay right now but in a little bit, I don't know," I shrug as the tears start to form in my sore eyes.

"I know this is hard because I'm not wanting to believe it either, but just trust me. It will get better. Give it time." I nod in understanding.

"Niall, I just... I can't thank you enough—," Niall cuts me off.

"Tatum you don't—" I shake my head for him to stop.

"Please I need to say this because you never know what could happen and what happened with Liam is making me realize a lot of things." He breathes and looks at me with full attention. "I can't thank you enough for everything you have done for me. You are always there to pick up the pieces and I really don't know what I would do without you." I start crying but continue. "I sometimes take you for granted and I don't need to any longer. You are my everything. You have given me so much love and happiness and those are two things I haven't had in such a long time. When I told you about what happened in my past, you could've left because anyone would know the road I was on wasn't going to be an easy one but you wanted to take this journey with me." Tears had started making their way down Niall's face. I put one hand in his and the other on the side of his face. "You are amazing, sweet, funny, and most importantly, you love with all your heart and that was something I was missing in my life. You turned my life around. I love you with all my heart and I promise to always love you and be who you need me to be just like you are who I needed you to be."

At first we just stare at each other and take in my words. He then leans in and kisses me so passionately.

"Tatum Hope Williams, I love you so much. You are my world and I promise I will continue to be your everything and so much more. We will take this journey day by day, together." He wipes my tears and kisses my forehead, lingering for a bit. "Are you ready to go?"