Just Trust Me || n.h. (EDITING IN PROGRESS)

I had my ultrasound done yesterday because I had to come home from work & I was hurting for over an hour so we went to the doctor to get one set up at the hospital & we found out the results today.

So the ultrasound was clear which is good but also bad because it doesn't tell us what is going on but the doctors think I have an infected ulcer in my stomach or somewhere around there ok but they THINK they aren't 100% sure... Which is scaring me in itself because they don't know for sure why I'm having stomach pains which now I'm starting to feel it in my back.

The doctors have me taking this medicine to treat an ulcer to see if I stop hurting & they also want me to take these like pepto bismol tablets but yet it says on the box don't take if you have an ulcer... Like really?! What the hell? Then what am I supposed to take to help the pain go away? I was eating Tums like they're going out of style but with this new medicine I can't anymore and they were actually helping.

I'm so sick of this y'all don't even know!!!

And my mom just told me that if the antibiotics don't work I'll have to get a CT scan bc the ultrasound didn't show anything so they will have to get a closer look. KILL ME! Like I'm so scared! What if it's something really major & the longer it takes to find it the worse it will get or what if all this medicine is making it worse?!

IM CRYING RIGHT NOW I JUST WANT THIS TO GO AWAY! I CANT GET COMFORTABLE WHEN IM HURTING & SOMETIMES IT HURTS TO BREATH BC IT HURTS AROUND MY RIBS & ALL OVER MY BACK! AND IM SO SORE!

This would happen to me so close to my concert! I swear the universe hates me! I'll be so devastated if I can't go!

I'm sorry to bother y'all with this but I thought I would update y'all since I told you the other day why I haven't updated in a while. I'm so sorry I really want to give y'all an update bc I also miss writing this story but I'm just so scared that it's something really bad.. Which it probably isn't but I can't help to think that ya know? I may start writing bits and pieces of the next chapter when I'm not hurting bc I know what my next few chapters will be about & I really don't want to leave y'all hanging! But at least the place I last updated was a good stop lol!

Anyway I'll let y'all go now! Thanks for reading these last couple of posts! Also thank you all for your comments! It means so much to me how much y'all care! I love y'all so much!

Hopefully my next post will be a new chapter or if not it'll be me telling y'all that I'm all better :)

Again thank you so much for your patience, understanding, & kindness!