Just Trust Me || n.h. (EDITING IN PROGRESS)

I believe this chapter is a bit longer than the others! Enjoy :)

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Tatum’s P.O.V.

Yesterday was definitely the most eventful Monday I’ve ever had. Well good eventful.

Niall talking to me about what happened when we hung out made me feel so much better. I loved that he was making an effort to apologize. When I looked into his eyes I could tell he truly meant every word he said.

He wants to protect me. He admitted he had feelings for me. I just can’t wrap my head around it. Never having those things said to me makes it so hard for me to believe it though. Why does someone like Niall, who is just perfect in every way, feel that way about me when no one else has? I’ve only ever dreamed of that being said to me.

Wait! Maybe this is all just a dream and I will wake up in my childhood home. I will see the bruises all over my body and the fresh cuts on my wrists because of how worthless he made me feel. When I wake up I will get that feeling of constant fear and guessing of when he will come back in my room and do things to me.

No I know this is real because we finally got away from him. I don’t have that feeling of being completely broken anymore when I wake up each morning. My mom knows how he treated me, hence the reason we moved all over the place. This is all really happening! Maybe my life has turned around and from now on, everything will finally be okay.

The truth is, as I told Niall, I really do like him. I’m just so afraid of love because I was never loved the way I should’ve been, well besides from my mom. Also since moving is such a big part of my life, who knows when we will leave again. He has found us in every other place so who says he won’t find us here. I just can’t do that to Niall. He doesn’t deserve to be loved one minute then abandoned the next. But there is no harm in being friends at least.

On top of Niall and I working everything out and telling each other how we feel, something else happened yesterday after lunch. Harry.

He told me he wanted to hang out sometime this week so we could get to know each other. I want to because I also like Harry, just not as much as Niall. But if I do I may feel like I’m cheating on Niall in some way. Actually I will hang out with Harry! Niall and I are only friends and I told him I was still going to be friends with Harry. I can handle it and take care of myself. I’ve overcome a lot in my life and I’m sure I can overcome whatever Harry throws my way, which according to Niall isn’t good, but I will find that out for myself.

I will probably tell him today during lunch that I would like to hang out Thursday. I would say this weekend but since last weekend Niall and I had that fight I wasn’t up to go out with my mom so we decided to do it this weekend, no matter what.

As I walk to school today, I feel cheery! I just overall feel really good. The weather is nice outside, which definitely helps with my mood from day to day, I have friends, two good looking guys who both like me. Life couldn’t get any better. Scratch that, having a girl friend to talk to would definitely make it better but hopefully soon enough that’ll happen.

As I’m getting closer to the school I see Niall’s car in the parking lot, as well as Harry’s. I walk into school and make my way to Niall when I spot him. He is talking to Louis and Josh, as expected.