Just Trust Me || n.h. (EDITING IN PROGRESS)

So Niall and Tatum's ship name is.... *drum roll*.... NATUM!!!

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Tatum's P.O.V.

I wake up in Niall's arms and remember what happened last night.

Niall kissed me.

And I kissed back. Well once I realized what was happening.

It felt so natural and amazing, but I don't really have anything to base it off of since that was my first real kiss. I really liked it but I need to tell Niall I just can't be in a relationship because it won't be fair to him. Who knows when I may be leaving again. I can't and I won't put him through that.

But for right this moment, I'm going to enjoy laying here with him.

When I look up at his face, I find that he is already looking at me with his beautiful, blue eyes that I try so hard not to get lost in.

"Morning," he says in a deep, raspy morning voice.

"Morning," I say shyly into his chest.

"How did you sleep?"

"Really well." I get up after answering and start to get my stuff together.

"Tatum what are doing? Are you already leaving?"

"Uh yeah I should get home," I say never looking at him. He gets up and I feel his hand gently wrap around my arm to stop me.

"Are we not going to talk about last night?" His eyes search for something in mine.

"There is nothing to talk about," I lie nonchalantly as I get out of his grasp and walk towards his door.

"Woah! Nothing to talk about?" He says louder than I expected. I can already feel the tears forming in my eyes. "Did the kiss mean nothing to you?" Niall sounds so hurt and I stop in my tracks. I take a deep breath to try and answer but if I do I know he will be able to tell I'm crying and he will ask why, which I don't want to talk about. "Tatum please answer me! I thought we liked each other or were you just lying to me?"

"No Niall I didn't lie to you! I do like you and yes the kiss did mean something to me, that's the problem," I tell him still facing the door.

"Why is that a problem?" I'm really starting to cry now because of how much I care for him but can't be with him, and how hurt he sounds. "It has to do with Harry, doesn't it?" I turn to face him and see his head hanging low.

"This has nothing to do with Harry! Why did you even bring him up? What the problem is happened way before I met either of you!" I yell at him as I start to cry even harder.

"Tatum please don't cry." He steps towards me but I back up. "Please let me be here for you." He takes another step causing me to step back again but I soon realize I have nowhere else to go when my back hits the door. I can barely see because of the tears clouding my eyes. "Tell me what's wrong. Why is the fact that the kiss meant something to you a problem?" With that I slide down the door, pull my knees into my chest, and start sobbing. Niall doesn't say anything. He just slowly makes his way to me. I feel one arm go behind my back and the other make its way under my knees. I look up through the hair that has fallen in my face and I realize what he is doing. He carefully picks me up bridal style and carries me into his room. He lays me down on his bed and joins me soon after.

Niall just holds me like he did the night Zayn tried to rape me. I told him what happened that night so maybe I can tell him what happened over 3 years ago. I let out a sigh and look up at him. When he feels me move he looks down, his eyes full of sympathy.