Just Trust Me || n.h. (EDITING IN PROGRESS)

So I really liked writing this chapter and I hope you enjoy reading it :)

It took me a bit longer than normal to write this because I decided on adding something about one of the characters! Want to find out a little about what it is? Read on!

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Harry's P.O.V.

So my plan of randomly showing up at Tatum's house worked out better than I thought. Just a few more times hanging out and I think I will start to make my move.

I can tell she is starting to open up and worry less. She is also starting to trust me, which I didn't think would happen as quickly as it has.

Like I said, I always get what I want. And even with Niall in the picture, it surprisingly hasn't slowed down or ruin my plan. It's my own guys who may mess it up for me. I have Zayn who almost slept with her and hit her. Then I have Liam who seems to be a bit on edge. I feel as if he may be hiding something, but I'll deal with that later.

The real important thing out of all of this is that this isn't who I always was. I don't want to be like I am anymore.

To those who knew me a few of years ago before I became the way I am, they have no idea about what happened over that summer almost 2 years ago. I lost a lot of friends because what happened made me into a totally different person. One who drinks and parties all the time, sleeps with every girl he sees, has nothing but anger inside of him. No one wanted to be around that, but I don't blame them because I don't even want to be around myself. That's why I force the girls who deny me because I long for someone to want to be around me. I long to feel something other than anger.

I know the boys don't truly like me they just like the power I have, I guess if you could call it that. Liam I know for sure is nothing like me. I think he is just too afraid to be his own person. Now Zayn on the other hand, he is a lot like me. He loves the thrill of what we do.

I want to go back to who I was but I'm in so deep I don't think I can. After everything I've done and haven't done but rumors say otherwise, no one would still want to be around me even if I did go back to who I was. I can't be trusted. So that's why I continue to do what I do. It gets my mind off of my fucked up life and thoughts. This is all a distraction.

Right now my main distraction is Tatum. When I'm with her I act like everything I wish I was, everything I used to be. Niall was my best mate and my fucked up self ruined that when I became who I am today. When I talk to him I can tell he sees that the old me is still in there somewhere, I just don't know how to find him.

I think I'm hoping Tatum will help me with that. If I connect with her in the most intimate way possible, maybe he will show up. That's why I may have to force her because I so desperately want the old me back. I'm not all bad. Deep down I still have a heart. I just don't show it, and maybe I should.

But for now, I am sticking to my plan. If nothing changes in me, then so be it. Maybe all of this is who I was meant to be.

Tatum's P.O.V.

My time with Harry was really fun. I love that I'm trying to open and be worry free. I have definitely been missing out but with what was going on in my life the last 3 years, I had reasons as to why I was so reserved and worrisome. I'm trying not to dwell on the past now that my life is finally becoming normal.

I do like Harry just not like I like Niall. The rule I made is slowly crumbling the more I'm with Niall, and I don't really mind. I do hope something becomes of us.

Speaking of Niall, I'm on my way to his place to work on our project for as long as we like. It is now Friday so we don't have to worry about the time.