The Single Life of The British Bombshell

Well my luvs,

I'm still doing great with guy 9 but there are a few flags that are concerning and make me know that it probably won't end up being a relationship but rather maybe just something special between us where we have adventures together and are intimate together and make each other happy, but official relationship.. I am leery!

I say that because I decided to do a date for him, out of the blue. I let him know what it would be in the beginning of the week and he said he was excited but wasn't sure if he would be able to do it but he would let me know. I get it... but when I asked him what he had to do, the reasons didn't really seem that serious. I mean, I know if I'm so into a woman and she wants to take me out and treat me, I would drop whatever I had to so that I could be there. This makes me think that he may have someone else in his life. I am not sure of course, and he has said that he's single but who knows. It's definitely possible because we see each other every other week so on the week we don't see one another, he could be with another person. I, of course try not to think negatively but I can't be naive to the possibility. That way, if anything does occur in regards to that I will be prepared and my heart will be protected.

The good news is that I'm a single woman so while I am dating and building with him, I am continuing to get to know others and will continue to date. Until I feel like I truly have found the right one I will continue to date many people because who knows what the future holds.

I hope that things continue to grow with guy 9 because I really like him! We connect in so many ways, our energy, our intimacy, our drive and ambition, our level of wanting to live our best life.. I mean just so many things. I truly see myself going there with him for his birthday in two months and have everything planned unless something happens before then to ruin what we have. So I am going to stay positive and try not to let this little mishap affect me! I want to stay in my happy zone and just go with it because I find that's the best way to go without any pressure or stress.

Regarding talking to people on the apps, I find right now that a lot of them are flaking. I always hate that but it is what it is. I think a lot of the times, guys don't know how to handle a "real woman" that knows what she wants and her worth! They also think that talking to me is going to be easy but it's not because you have to work to get on each level. I have questions from every angle and if you can't hang then I move on!

Oh, speaking about not being able to hang.. One of the guys from my past episodes messaged me saying "hey" today. I think it might've been guy 5 or 6 but I honestly don't remember and it's not even worth my time going back to confirm which one he was. All you need to know is I didn't respond because he's already in my past. He fell off weeks ago and decided to no longer text so why would I ever respond.. It never fails though, every single guy I've gone on a date with or talked to and they fall off, always comes back later trying to get back and I simply laugh. I tell them all in the beginning that I don't give second chances so maybe they should realize it's not a joke and act right from the start! Anyway my luvs, guy 9 and I are still on for our date in two weeks so I'll be sure to keep you posted about that but until then, I'll continue to do me as I always do! XOXO Bombshell Out!!