How Do I Find My Way Back To You? -minizerk AU- (sequel)

Josh's P.O.V.

"Hey how are you?" Tobi asked as he walked into the room.

"This is the fifth time that I have been to the hospital this month. I haven't been able to say anything to Simon. I feel like shit and look like shit. My heart is hurting not only because I am having trouble breathing and keeping the blood flowing, but because I am in pain that Simon is across the world and I can't even talk to him or tell him how much I love him." I said as Tobi sat down.

"Look, it will get better. I know it will." Tobi said smiling.

I wanted to believe him, but I couldn't.

"How about I call up Simon on my phone and you guys can talk?" Tobi said smiling as he handed me his phone.

"Tobi, I can't do that to you." I said as he just looked at me.

"Of course you can, Vik is coming anyway so I can just spend time with him when you are talking to Simon." Tobi said as he walked out of the room.

I dialed up Simon's phone number and decided to FaceTime with him. It took a couple of rings but soon enough he had answered and his face had popped up.

"Hey Tobi, perfect time for you to call I want you to meet my new friend." Simon said as he turned his head to see me.

He just had a shocked, excited look on his face.

"Hey." I said waving my hand.

"What, where, how, what?" He said obviously surprised.

"Tobi came to the hospital to see me and he gave me his phone to...." I said before I saw a guy behind him, "who's this?"

Simon then looked behind and saw his friend and turned and just smiled.

"His name is Lewis, we met each other when I was visiting the campus. I've been trying to get out more often." He said smiling.

"Hi, Simon has told me so much about you. I'm guessing you are Josh. He is right, you have the most beautiful eyes I've ever seen." Lewis said smiling.

"Oh, thank you. I didn't realize Simon talked about me." I said as Simon just smiled.

"Why wouldn't I talk about my boyfriend? Simon said laughing.

"He talks about you and your friends nonstop. I remember when we first met and all he could talk about is how much he misses you guys." Lewis said laughing.

"Are you from the UK too? You have an accent." I said as he just smiled.

"Yeah, I used to live there." He said as Simon just looked at him.

Simon looked at him in a way that he normally wouldn't look like when looking at a friend. It made my heart skip a beat and I felt my body go pale.

"So, I should probably get going you guys look busy and the doctor says that I should get more rest." I said speeding up as I said each word.

"Wait woah we just started to talk, are you sure?" Simon said as he looked at me a little disappointed.

"Yeah, you guys look like you are busy and want to talk. Maybe we can talk another time? I think that I am going to not be here as often so..." I said as he just looked even more upset.

"Lewis can I have a sec," Simon said turning to him, he then left and Simon looked back at me, "I haven't seen you in forever and I really want to talk to you. Is something wrong? I've missed you so much and it's so hard not being able to talk to you and find out that you are back in the hospital from one of the guys. The only good thing since this move is Lewis." Simon said as I realized how messed up everything truly is.

I can't bare to think that Simon isn't enjoying himself to the fullest.

"Simon, I don't want you to feel that way, don't worry about me. Enjoy yourself. I'll tell the guys to stop annoying you. Look go enjoy yourself. I don't want to ruin that." I said as he just looked at me with a worried look.

"Josh, I want to talk to you. I am enjoying myself as much as I can possible, I just want to talk to my boyfriend. Is that a big deal. I don't get it?" He said looking at me confused.

"I'm sorry, I just, I'm mad. I'm mad that I can't be there. I'm mad that everything is ruined because of a stupid drunk driver. I'm mad that I can't be the one to make you happy while in America but Lewis is. I'm mad that I have been in and out of the hospital and knowing that you are worried sick about me. It's about enough having people be here and worry about me, but not even being able to hold your hand and for you to tell me everything is going to be okay and me telling you that you are the reason I am fighting, it just hurts. I want to be there for you. I want to hold your hand a walk along the beach. I want to see your eyes light up and sparkle when we walk down the beach. I want to make this promise ring the truth and do everything possible to make you happy but I can't. I love you so much, but my body is aching and nothing is helping. I..I, I feel like a cr...crap boyfriend." I said as I started to cry.

"Josh you are doing everything in your power to be here with me. Josh you are the most amazing boyfriend I could've ever asked for. I am so lucky to have you. Josh I don't care how long it takes for you to get here. I just like knowing that you are okay and I want to cherish all the moments we have like this together." He said as I just smiled and wiped away my tears.

That is exactly what we we had done. We enjoyed the call and it was full of laughter and joy. Soon enough Vik and Tobi came in to talk to him too. I had so much fun and for once out of this long torturous time in my life. 

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A/N: sorry that I didn't get this uploaded soon, just been having difficulties getting it to work. So yeah. I don't really know, this is awkward, bye!