How Do I Find My Way Back To You? -minizerk AU- (sequel)

Simon's P.O.V.

We had finally landed and all I could think about was getting to Josh. All I could think about was seeing his face and feeling butterflies all throughout my stomach, to feel the tingling feeling go down my back, to have a smile spread over my face to where I look like I'm the biggest idiot in the whole entire world.

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We got to the hotel in which we were staying at. Luckily my mom gave me the car so that I would have a chance to see Josh. I drove as fast as I possibly could. I've never been so excited in my whole entire life.

I finally reached Josh's house and knocked on the door to be greeted by his mom.

"Simon!" She said hugging me.

I have always been close with Josh's family. Josh's mom is like my mom and both of our moms are so close with each other.

"I can't believe you are back! How long will you be here?" I felt bad because all I could think about was seeing Josh.

"Only two weeks that is why I came here so fast so that I could see Josh." I said smiling she just laughed.

"I realize I am blocking true love, go ahead I think that Tobi might be in there but I think that he is leaving." She said as she took me towards Josh's room.

I walked inside to see Tobi and Josh just talking and then they looked at me. Right away Josh got up out of bed and I ran toward him and hugged him. I missed him so much and to feel his embrace is everything that I have ever dreamed of.

"I missed you so much." I said as we separated from the hug.

I just pecked him on the lips and he smiled making me smile.

"There's that smile that we've missed so much." Tobi said as I let go of Josh and hugged Tobi.

"What do you mean?" I said as Tobi just looked at me.

"Josh if I am suppose to be happy than so are you. I don't care if you have an excuse or something. The best way to be cured is by smiling and being happy." I said as I held him close.

"Okay, I'm sorry. I'll try my hardest." He said as he just held onto me.

I didn't notice how much it was hurting him. I just want him to be happy.

We both sat down and talked while Tobi had left us.

I talked about how beautiful California was and I could tell that he was bummed out. He was missing so many things. Things that I have been taking for granted.

"Come with me." I said as I grabbed his hand.

We both walked out of his house and walked on the porch.

I kissed him on the cheek and then we kept on walking.

Then we got to the hill in which he was bringing us to on the day of graduation. We sat down underneath the one lone tree.

I then saw something that I never saw before.

"Josh?" I said as I looked to my side and he wasn't there.

A second later he sat down and this scene had shown up. It was all of our history. The first day that we had met. The first day that we hung out with just one another and not the group. The first class that we had together. The first time we told each other the truth, to where I had kissed him, to where he had first betrayed me for Freya and his family, to the time we told each other we loved each other, to prom and graduation and then a part in which Josh just talked.

I looked at Josh in real life and then at the screen and then back at Josh as he just smiled and cuddled me. I then look back to the screen and Josh started to talk.

"Hey, I am making this right after prom before I have brought you here. Happy graduation. I can't believe it, I can't believe that we are together. I can't believe that you love me and that every day I get to look you in the eye and get to kiss you. To me this is all mind blowing for the longest time I thought that I would have to get over you, move on, but you love me and I am so thankful for that. That is why I am going to America with you, that I why I am doing what I am going to do." He said as I looked over at Josh and a song started to play.

He just started to cry and walked away.

"Josh?" I said as he just turned his head.

"I'm sorry Simon. I just, I just can't." He said as he walked away.

I just sat there in shock, confusion and frustration. I felt my heart sink as his figure was out of sight and I could no longer see him.

Even though he was out of sight I could still see him and feel him and then I felt lost. Lost and confused and alone.

I just sat there and listen to the song and I thought about how amazing things were before the crash. I just wanted to break something, to hurt something, to hurt the stupid, drunken bastard who hurt the love of my life. To ruin his life. I got up to then feel my legs go limp. I couldn't do anything. I didn't have the strength.

I was lost and broken. Nothing could fix me.

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A/N: I still don't know what I am going to do about the cover thing. I know that some people have suggested to help me with them, I just haven't figured what I would want to do. So thank you for commenting that you could help, that is like really sweet, much love, much love, I just want to figure out what I want to do before I just ask someone.

Also sorry if this is like really slow at first I am just trying to make this longer than my other books and I already have a plan for this. So just wait, it will get better.

Anyway that is all, I love you all because you guys are so awesome and supportive and like I feel happy to write because I know that there are people out there just as obsessed as I am with the sidemen and like minizerk so yeah.

Anyway, that is literally all, bye!