How Do I Find My Way Back To You? -minizerk AU- (sequel)

Simon's P.O.V.

Josh?

I ran to where the ambulance was going. I couldn't stop running. I couldn't stop thinking that the ambulance is going to Josh. I can't stop thinking that I told Josh that I was going to fuck Lewis in the anus and that would be my last words to him.

I then got to the incident. There was caution tape surrounding the area.

"I'm sorry sir, but you are not allowed in here." A man said as he walked over to me.

"Allow him, he is a friend of Josh." Josh's mom said as he then allowed me to come inside.

I saw them trying to rehabilitate Josh. He looked so pale, dead, a loss of color. He didn't look like Josh. I felt my heart breaking. What am I suppose to do?

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We were now just waiting in the hospital. All I can think about is losing Josh. To never tell him how I truly feel. To never let him know how much I love him.

I already had our whole entire life planned out, to be honest.

Soon we would both really start up our YouTube channel, his would be Zerkaa and mine would be Miniminter. Soon enough we would tell all of our fans about us and then we would get an apartment together. We wouldn't allow our relationship to take over our channels so instead we would upload to a new channel. Minizerker. Everyone will watch us do random challenges. By two years I would engage to Josh and there will be white and orange tulips and Lily's everywhere at our wedding. All the sidemen would be our best men. Soon after we are married we would adopt a baby boy and our YouTube channel will soon die down and we will own a video game shop called Minigamez. Our little boy will come home from school and I would pick him up and bring him to the store in which in Josh and my office we will have a cute little desk for him to do homework. As years go on soon of our son will graduate and get married and have children of his own. By then he will be taking care of us. When one of us dies soon the other will die, but before that we will put orange and white tulips on the others grave. There will be a spot right next to one of us for the other. One he gravestone it will Simon and Josh Minizerker, two who loved each other more than anything. Went through rough times but ended up with one another.

I had the whole idea planned out and now it may never happen and I don't know what to do anymore.

Everything is gone, my whole entire life, my world feels empty, like I am stuck in an abyss and there is no way of escaping.

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It has been a few hours and Josh has just gotten out of surgery. Apparently he is awake but they have to do certain test on him. I'm not allowed to see him until his parents see him.

He might actually be okay and I've never been more excited in my whole entire life.

Black &: hey how is he, sorry that we couldn't be there

Minibog: why are you still 'Black &' when your other half isn't even here, that is beside the point I think that Josh is doing okay his parents are going in now

Black &: you haven't seen him yet, do you think he'll be upset with you?

Minibog: I don't know that is what I've started to think about

Tobi didn't answer, he just read it. Maybe this wasn't a good idea. I can't do this, I can't ruin his life even more.

I got up and walked out. This is for the better. If he sees me he'll just become mad and then he'll hurt himself even more. It's not worth it.

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I got back to the hotel and my mom and brother were packing.

"What's going on?" I asked as they both looked at me.

"Dad had a heart attack, we got to go home. I'm sorry honey." My mom said as she came up to hug me.

I just started to cry in her embrace. I don't know what hurts more, the fact that I can lose Josh or the fact that I can lose my father.

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A/N: I'll try my hardest to write another chapter for you guys, but there is no promises. Also I just wanted to say that I love all of the support and I am so glad that so many of you are enjoying this book so much. I promise it will get better, it isn't all heart break. I just want this one to be good and to have a good book you have to have feels.

Anyway that is all, thank you and I love you all, bye!